The way you are (4/5)
Title: The way you are
Author: MatsuAurore
Beta: Andreja1989 <3
Pairing: Sakuraiba, Juntoshi
Rating: NC-17
Genre: Au, drama, romance, angst, BDSM (hints)
Disclaimer: Only own the plot T.T but luckily, Sho owns Aiba xD
Summary: Sho is perfect. Smart, kind, patient, handsome with a high job and will soon get married with the girl of his dreams. His life is a long and annoying straight line. But what he didn't expect was his meeting with Aiba, a mysterious and gorgeous man who will change his view of the life and will bring lots of questions about himself.
Chapter 4: I kissed a boy
I closed the box in my hands with a sigh. Maybe it was time to move on and forget...
"Irasshaimase!"
"Hi." I said shyly. Aiba gasped when he saw me but smiled.
"I'm surprised to see you again Sakurai-san." Aiba grinned.
"I wanted to apologize for my behavior."
"It's okay, I went too far." Aiba smiled warmly.
"Could you make me your specialty?" I asked softly.
"Hun." Aiba took a glass and started to prepare my drink.
He was beautiful. So beautiful. The way he was moving his hands, the way his eyes were looking at his preparation and how he was biting his lip. Holy shit, it turned me on seeing him biting the full pink lip! But even if he was a gorgeous man, it was him who attracted me. Because I couldn't lie to myself. He did attract me. He had a special aura, a warmness that was making me smile like an idiot school boy who was experiencing his first love. I loved the way he was. Aiba was kind, smart, funny and innocent. Well, if you could really use this word for someone who likes BDSM.
"Here you are." Aiba pushed the glass toward me. It was beautiful. The drink was a mix of colors. Red with some touches of green and a strawberry on the side of the glass. And there was some pink sugar all around the glass. You didn't even want to drink because it was too beautiful.
"Thank you." I put my lips on the sugar and drank. "Amazing!" I exclaimed in front of his nervous eyes.
"Thanks." Aiba beamed.
"It's incredible how you have mixed the tastes!"
"I make my drinks according to my customers." Aiba smiled kindly, taking a bottle of vodka.
"Eh?"
"When people come in my club, they want to forget their day, so, I sort of read them and prepare a special drink."
"How does it work?" This really sounded very interesting.
"I can guess what kind of people they are. If they are shy, kind, serious, fragile, selfish, excited or calm. If they like some spicy in their life or prefer to plan everything." Aiba smirked, making me blush.
"Like me?" I asked.
"Like you. But you, you are different." Aiba whispered.
"Really?" I raised an eyebrow, curious.
"Yes. The first time I've seen you, I knew you were different. Usually, I can read people's heart easily but you, you were harder." Aiba pouted, his lips forming a cute expression.
"Tell me more!"
"I... Even if you were smiling and laughing, I knew it was just a mask. There is something... A scar, a pain in your heart, as if you were suffering but despite your friends, you can't erase it."
Holy shit, he read me too well! It was as if I couldn't hide any secrets from him.
"So?"
"After that, you told me some things that confirmed my theory. You were trying to justify your life and the way you are, explaining why you needed to plan everything."
"I see." He was good. Too good. I was an open book for this man and his beautiful eyes. Aiba sat next to me with his drink and drank a bit.
"And then, you talked about your girlfriend." Aiba stated.
"What did you think?"
"You see, when a person is talking about her lover, there is something special in her eyes."
"Something special?" I frowned. What did he mean?
"Yes. When you are in love and happy, it is as if you have light in your eyes if you talk about your lover. There is happiness shining in your eyes or around you, like a special aura. Unconsciously, you want to show how happy you are but strangely, you weren't. When you said your girlfriend's name, there was like a shadow in your eyes, as if it was painful to talk about her."
"You are too confident about your gift!" I snapped.
"Let me finish. Then, when I told you about me liking BDSM or being led, you changed. You said your girlfriend didn't want while you were someone who likes to dominate. You didn't know me and then, told me about your deep wishes, about the most intimate parts of yourself." Aiba said softly.
"So, your diagnosis doctor Freud?" I asked sarcastically.
"I'm not playing the psychologist. But with all these things, I can say that you are unhappy. Unhappy and afraid. I think something happened in your life, something that you want to forget by planning everything and playing the perfect boyfriend and son."
"I..." I didn't know what to say. It was painful to hear that. Yes, truth hurts.
"You can't erase the past but just accept it and move on. Creating a fake perfect life won't make you happy and one day, you will wake up with the will of dying, believe me."
"What do you propose then?" I snapped. Aiba smiled softly, got up and switched the stereo on.
"Dance with me."
"Eh?" I wasn't expecting that.
"Forget this fake reality. Be yourself to clear your mind." Aiba closed the café and held out his hand. I sighed and took it.
This was never the way I planned, not my intention.
I got so brave, drink in hand, lost my discretion
It's not what I'm used to, just wanna try you on.
I'm curious for you, caught my attention.
I don't know why I agreed, maybe because of the alcohol but the result was the same, I fucked-up. Aiba led me to the middle of the bar and started to dance. He was beautiful, so beautiful. The way he was moving his hips against me, his hand brushing my arm to my thigh. I shivered excitedly. Playing his game. Because yes, I was sure it was a game, I grabbed his hip to stick our bodies. It was as if fire was burning in my stomach. Aiba was attracting me. Holy crap, I was losing my mind!
Aiba licked his lips and then, I lost my reason. I grabbed his nape and smacked our mouths. Masaki moaned and opened his lips to allow me to dive my tongue in his warm cavern. I led the kiss, enjoying it with every part of myself.
I kissed a boy and I liked it,
the taste of his cherry pink lips.
I kissed a boy just to try it,
I hope my girlfriend don't mind it.
It felt so wrong,
it felt so right.
Don't mean I'm in love tonight.
I kissed a boy and I liked it (I liked it).
I released him, breathless. Aiba smirked evilly. This little bitch was playing with my nerves! He wanted to play? Alright, we will play his game. Nothing matters anymore but just us. Aiba wrapped his arms around my neck, attacking my jaw to my earlobe. Luckily, the music was covering my moans. It felt so good, his lips felt so good on me! I was lost in this game, kissing, biting his lips.
"Sho-chan..." Aiba sighed against my ear.
I smiled, stealing his lips again. It felt so good to lose my mind like that, to lose the usual control of myself. I undulated my hips against him, making him gasp. Aiba Masaki, you didn't know where you were going my little rabbit.
No, I don't even know your name, it doesn't matter.
You're my experimental game, just human nature.
It's not what good boys do, not how they should behave.
My head gets so confused, hard to obey.
I kissed a boy and I liked it,
the taste of his cherry pink lips.
I kissed a boy just to try it,
I hope my girlfriend don't mind it.
It felt so wrong,
it felt so right.
Don't mean I'm in love tonight.
I kissed a boy and I liked it (I liked it).
He was intoxicating me. As if he had thrown a spell on me. His soft skin like a girl’s, his deep brown eyes, his full pink lips tasting like a cherry. I was hypnotized. He was hypnotizing me. Even if he was taller than me, I was the stronger one and Aiba looked like a cute princess in my arms. I gulped when I felt his hard member against my thigh. Holy shit, he was as hard as me. He seemed to feel it because he stuck his arousal even more against me and moaned, I grabbed his butt to press our lengths together.
"Masaki..." I gasped in his ear.
"I want you." Aiba moaned, sending shivers down my spine.
"I can't... "
"Let it go..." Aiba whispered. I looked at him with horny eyes and caught his lips roughly. I lifted him in my arms and led him toward the big red sofa.
"Fuck me!" Aiba said seriously. I licked his lips, my hands brushing his skin.
"I want you so bad." I whined, standing up.
I unbuttoned my shirt and unzipped my jeans, taking off my clothes without looking away. Aiba licked his lips and took his clothes off too, opening his legs widely and shamelessly. I stared at him with desire. He was so, so beautiful with this birthmark on his shoulder and his thin but sculpt body. I climbed on top of him, smacking our mouths again for a rough kiss. I licked, kissed and sucked his skin, stroking his thigh and undulating my hips to create a friction between our members.
"Ahhh..." Aiba gasped, arched his head back and with this allowed me to suck his beautiful Adam apple.
"You're so sexy..." I whispered before sucking my fingers. My hand traveled toward his butt and I started to stretch him quickly.
"Sho... Fuck me already!" Aiba ordered.
"You want me?" I smirked.
"I... Yes!"
"How?"
"I want you inside me! Take me, Sho!" Aiba snapped. I laughed and pushed my member inside him.
"Fuck, you're so tight!" I closed my eyes, enjoying him around me.
"Move!" Aiba begged, wrapping my waist with his legs.
I started to undulate slowly at first. Aiba arched his head, his hips following his movement and making me slip further inside. I took his lip between my teeth, sucking it with each thrust, moans leaving my throat.
"Faster!" Aiba implored.
"Babe..." I gasped and speeded up, hitting his sweet spot dead on.
"Gosh... Yes... Arg... Right here!" Aiba scratched my back.
Holy shit he was so beautiful like that. His red and sweating face, his parted lips, his moans and his closed eyes. Fucking gosh, this man was addicting! He was driving me insane! I thrusted harder, wrapping his length when I felt we were on the edge of our orgasm. I was attacking his magical spot again and again, making Aiba scream loudly in the whole bar. He was so sexy when he was moaning.
"Sh-o... I'm...com-ing!" Aiba gasped.
"Come for me." I whispered, thrusting harder if it was possible.
Us boys we are so magical,
Strong arms, red lips, so kissable.
Hard to resist, so touchable.
Too good to deny it.
Ain't no big deal, it's innocent.
I kissed a boy and I liked it,
the taste of his cherry pink lips.
I kissed a boy just to try it,
I hope my girlfriend don't mind it.
It felt so wrong,
it felt so right.
Don't mean I'm in love tonight.
I kissed a boy and I liked it (I liked it).
I liked it!
Aiba released in my hand with a whine, his tightness bringing me over the edge. I collapsed next to him, panting heavily.
Gosh, that was the best orgasm of my life!
"That was... amazing." Aiba panted.
"Yes."
Grabbing a blanket, Aiba lied next to me. I hugged him against me, covering our bodies carefully. We fell asleep quickly in each other's arms, Aiba's face in my neck.
****
I opened my eyes with a moan, feeling the sun on my face. Yawning, I stretched my body but soon, froze. I was naked. I was naked on a sofa and on my chest was Aiba's head.
Holy crap! I was in big shit! I struggled, waking Aiba up.
"Hello." Aiba stroked his eyes while I was looking for my clothes in panic.
"Hi..." I mumbled, taking my boxer and my jeans.
"Sho?"
"I... I have to go... I'm working." I said precipitancy.
"But..."
I didn't wait for his answer and left the café quickly as the coward I was.
"Where have you been?" Yuki asked me when I opened our apartment's door.
"I..."
"You didn't come back for one night, I was worried sick. Where were you, Sho!" Yuki yelled.
"I fell asleep at my office." I lied.
"Or you were with another girl." Yuki snapped, approaching me.
"I would never do that to you and you know it." I replied.
"You don't smell perfume..." She whispered.
"Of course I'm not. What did you believe?!" I exclaimed.
"I'm sorry, I believed you were with another girl." She sobbed. Well, at least it wasn't a girl. I thought.
"It's okay dear." I hugged her, guilt invading my heart.
"Sho, make love to me." Yuki looked at me with pleading eyes.
"Okay..."
I grabbed my head with both hands. Yuki was sleeping next to me. I had made love to her but without any pleasure. Every time I was moving, I had Aiba's face in my mind.
I really was in big shit.
"What happened Sho, you don't seem concentrated." Jun asked me the next day.
"I'm tired that's all." I smiled weakly.
"I'm here if you need to talk, you know it."
"Thanks."
Taking my suitcase, I stood up, ready to leave. I stopped when I saw Jun kissing Ohno roughly in the corridor.
"I love you so much, teddy, you know that?" Jun whispered, stroking Ohno's face. The love shining in his eyes made me understand what Aiba meant the previous night.
"Yes master. I love master too."
"Good boy, come on." Jun bit his lip before leading him toward his office.
Shaking my head, I drove to Rakuen's café.
"Irasshaimase!" Aiba beamed but his face turned white when he saw me.
"Hi." I whispered.
"What do you want?" Aiba frowned.
"I'm sorry for leaving yesterday morning."
"It's okay."
"Aiba, I also wanted to apologize for what happened between us." I stated, lowering my eyes.
"What do you mean?"
"I was drunk, I didn't know what I was doing."
"Will that be your lame excuse every time you want to escape?!" Aiba snapped.
"I'm sorry. I was lost... It was amazing what happened but... I love Yuki." I whispered.
"No, you don't. If you loved her you would have never fucked me!" Aiba shouted, customers turning their heads toward us. I blushed.
"I was lost... I... I'm sorry but I can't leave her."
"Why? Why are you making yourself suffer, Sho? Why are you lying to yourself and living in this fucking fake perfect life?!" Aiba snapped.
"I like the way I am. I like my life."
"Of course, that's why you put your cock in my ass!" Aiba yelled. I blushed when I heard lots of whispers. I wanted to disappear in a hole.
"I... I'm sorry. I won't come again..." I whispered, tears filling my eyes.
"Get out! Get out, bastard!" Aiba cried. I hated myself for making him cry. I wanted to hug him, to wipe his tears away.
I ran away, tears rolling down my cheeks. I had to do that even if it meant making Aiba suffer. It was the good decision.
So, why was my heart aching so much?
The next day, I jumped when I heard the door of the office slamming roughly.
"Sakurai Sho, you really are the biggest bastard of Japan, how did you dare?!" Someone shouted, grabbing my shirt to punch me violently.
"Kazu?!" I gasped, my eyes wide open.
To be continued...
A/N: Ouch, I think some readers won't like Sho's attitude with Aiba xD but as wrong as he is, he has his reasons for acting like that xD you'll understand everything in the final chapter xD see you soon and comments are always <3
Author: MatsuAurore
Beta: Andreja1989 <3
Pairing: Sakuraiba, Juntoshi
Rating: NC-17
Genre: Au, drama, romance, angst, BDSM (hints)
Disclaimer: Only own the plot T.T but luckily, Sho owns Aiba xD
Summary: Sho is perfect. Smart, kind, patient, handsome with a high job and will soon get married with the girl of his dreams. His life is a long and annoying straight line. But what he didn't expect was his meeting with Aiba, a mysterious and gorgeous man who will change his view of the life and will bring lots of questions about himself.
Chapter 4: I kissed a boy
I closed the box in my hands with a sigh. Maybe it was time to move on and forget...
"Irasshaimase!"
"Hi." I said shyly. Aiba gasped when he saw me but smiled.
"I'm surprised to see you again Sakurai-san." Aiba grinned.
"I wanted to apologize for my behavior."
"It's okay, I went too far." Aiba smiled warmly.
"Could you make me your specialty?" I asked softly.
"Hun." Aiba took a glass and started to prepare my drink.
He was beautiful. So beautiful. The way he was moving his hands, the way his eyes were looking at his preparation and how he was biting his lip. Holy shit, it turned me on seeing him biting the full pink lip! But even if he was a gorgeous man, it was him who attracted me. Because I couldn't lie to myself. He did attract me. He had a special aura, a warmness that was making me smile like an idiot school boy who was experiencing his first love. I loved the way he was. Aiba was kind, smart, funny and innocent. Well, if you could really use this word for someone who likes BDSM.
"Here you are." Aiba pushed the glass toward me. It was beautiful. The drink was a mix of colors. Red with some touches of green and a strawberry on the side of the glass. And there was some pink sugar all around the glass. You didn't even want to drink because it was too beautiful.
"Thank you." I put my lips on the sugar and drank. "Amazing!" I exclaimed in front of his nervous eyes.
"Thanks." Aiba beamed.
"It's incredible how you have mixed the tastes!"
"I make my drinks according to my customers." Aiba smiled kindly, taking a bottle of vodka.
"Eh?"
"When people come in my club, they want to forget their day, so, I sort of read them and prepare a special drink."
"How does it work?" This really sounded very interesting.
"I can guess what kind of people they are. If they are shy, kind, serious, fragile, selfish, excited or calm. If they like some spicy in their life or prefer to plan everything." Aiba smirked, making me blush.
"Like me?" I asked.
"Like you. But you, you are different." Aiba whispered.
"Really?" I raised an eyebrow, curious.
"Yes. The first time I've seen you, I knew you were different. Usually, I can read people's heart easily but you, you were harder." Aiba pouted, his lips forming a cute expression.
"Tell me more!"
"I... Even if you were smiling and laughing, I knew it was just a mask. There is something... A scar, a pain in your heart, as if you were suffering but despite your friends, you can't erase it."
Holy shit, he read me too well! It was as if I couldn't hide any secrets from him.
"So?"
"After that, you told me some things that confirmed my theory. You were trying to justify your life and the way you are, explaining why you needed to plan everything."
"I see." He was good. Too good. I was an open book for this man and his beautiful eyes. Aiba sat next to me with his drink and drank a bit.
"And then, you talked about your girlfriend." Aiba stated.
"What did you think?"
"You see, when a person is talking about her lover, there is something special in her eyes."
"Something special?" I frowned. What did he mean?
"Yes. When you are in love and happy, it is as if you have light in your eyes if you talk about your lover. There is happiness shining in your eyes or around you, like a special aura. Unconsciously, you want to show how happy you are but strangely, you weren't. When you said your girlfriend's name, there was like a shadow in your eyes, as if it was painful to talk about her."
"You are too confident about your gift!" I snapped.
"Let me finish. Then, when I told you about me liking BDSM or being led, you changed. You said your girlfriend didn't want while you were someone who likes to dominate. You didn't know me and then, told me about your deep wishes, about the most intimate parts of yourself." Aiba said softly.
"So, your diagnosis doctor Freud?" I asked sarcastically.
"I'm not playing the psychologist. But with all these things, I can say that you are unhappy. Unhappy and afraid. I think something happened in your life, something that you want to forget by planning everything and playing the perfect boyfriend and son."
"I..." I didn't know what to say. It was painful to hear that. Yes, truth hurts.
"You can't erase the past but just accept it and move on. Creating a fake perfect life won't make you happy and one day, you will wake up with the will of dying, believe me."
"What do you propose then?" I snapped. Aiba smiled softly, got up and switched the stereo on.
"Dance with me."
"Eh?" I wasn't expecting that.
"Forget this fake reality. Be yourself to clear your mind." Aiba closed the café and held out his hand. I sighed and took it.
This was never the way I planned, not my intention.
I got so brave, drink in hand, lost my discretion
It's not what I'm used to, just wanna try you on.
I'm curious for you, caught my attention.
I don't know why I agreed, maybe because of the alcohol but the result was the same, I fucked-up. Aiba led me to the middle of the bar and started to dance. He was beautiful, so beautiful. The way he was moving his hips against me, his hand brushing my arm to my thigh. I shivered excitedly. Playing his game. Because yes, I was sure it was a game, I grabbed his hip to stick our bodies. It was as if fire was burning in my stomach. Aiba was attracting me. Holy crap, I was losing my mind!
Aiba licked his lips and then, I lost my reason. I grabbed his nape and smacked our mouths. Masaki moaned and opened his lips to allow me to dive my tongue in his warm cavern. I led the kiss, enjoying it with every part of myself.
I kissed a boy and I liked it,
the taste of his cherry pink lips.
I kissed a boy just to try it,
I hope my girlfriend don't mind it.
It felt so wrong,
it felt so right.
Don't mean I'm in love tonight.
I kissed a boy and I liked it (I liked it).
I released him, breathless. Aiba smirked evilly. This little bitch was playing with my nerves! He wanted to play? Alright, we will play his game. Nothing matters anymore but just us. Aiba wrapped his arms around my neck, attacking my jaw to my earlobe. Luckily, the music was covering my moans. It felt so good, his lips felt so good on me! I was lost in this game, kissing, biting his lips.
"Sho-chan..." Aiba sighed against my ear.
I smiled, stealing his lips again. It felt so good to lose my mind like that, to lose the usual control of myself. I undulated my hips against him, making him gasp. Aiba Masaki, you didn't know where you were going my little rabbit.
No, I don't even know your name, it doesn't matter.
You're my experimental game, just human nature.
It's not what good boys do, not how they should behave.
My head gets so confused, hard to obey.
I kissed a boy and I liked it,
the taste of his cherry pink lips.
I kissed a boy just to try it,
I hope my girlfriend don't mind it.
It felt so wrong,
it felt so right.
Don't mean I'm in love tonight.
I kissed a boy and I liked it (I liked it).
He was intoxicating me. As if he had thrown a spell on me. His soft skin like a girl’s, his deep brown eyes, his full pink lips tasting like a cherry. I was hypnotized. He was hypnotizing me. Even if he was taller than me, I was the stronger one and Aiba looked like a cute princess in my arms. I gulped when I felt his hard member against my thigh. Holy shit, he was as hard as me. He seemed to feel it because he stuck his arousal even more against me and moaned, I grabbed his butt to press our lengths together.
"Masaki..." I gasped in his ear.
"I want you." Aiba moaned, sending shivers down my spine.
"I can't... "
"Let it go..." Aiba whispered. I looked at him with horny eyes and caught his lips roughly. I lifted him in my arms and led him toward the big red sofa.
"Fuck me!" Aiba said seriously. I licked his lips, my hands brushing his skin.
"I want you so bad." I whined, standing up.
I unbuttoned my shirt and unzipped my jeans, taking off my clothes without looking away. Aiba licked his lips and took his clothes off too, opening his legs widely and shamelessly. I stared at him with desire. He was so, so beautiful with this birthmark on his shoulder and his thin but sculpt body. I climbed on top of him, smacking our mouths again for a rough kiss. I licked, kissed and sucked his skin, stroking his thigh and undulating my hips to create a friction between our members.
"Ahhh..." Aiba gasped, arched his head back and with this allowed me to suck his beautiful Adam apple.
"You're so sexy..." I whispered before sucking my fingers. My hand traveled toward his butt and I started to stretch him quickly.
"Sho... Fuck me already!" Aiba ordered.
"You want me?" I smirked.
"I... Yes!"
"How?"
"I want you inside me! Take me, Sho!" Aiba snapped. I laughed and pushed my member inside him.
"Fuck, you're so tight!" I closed my eyes, enjoying him around me.
"Move!" Aiba begged, wrapping my waist with his legs.
I started to undulate slowly at first. Aiba arched his head, his hips following his movement and making me slip further inside. I took his lip between my teeth, sucking it with each thrust, moans leaving my throat.
"Faster!" Aiba implored.
"Babe..." I gasped and speeded up, hitting his sweet spot dead on.
"Gosh... Yes... Arg... Right here!" Aiba scratched my back.
Holy shit he was so beautiful like that. His red and sweating face, his parted lips, his moans and his closed eyes. Fucking gosh, this man was addicting! He was driving me insane! I thrusted harder, wrapping his length when I felt we were on the edge of our orgasm. I was attacking his magical spot again and again, making Aiba scream loudly in the whole bar. He was so sexy when he was moaning.
"Sh-o... I'm...com-ing!" Aiba gasped.
"Come for me." I whispered, thrusting harder if it was possible.
Us boys we are so magical,
Strong arms, red lips, so kissable.
Hard to resist, so touchable.
Too good to deny it.
Ain't no big deal, it's innocent.
I kissed a boy and I liked it,
the taste of his cherry pink lips.
I kissed a boy just to try it,
I hope my girlfriend don't mind it.
It felt so wrong,
it felt so right.
Don't mean I'm in love tonight.
I kissed a boy and I liked it (I liked it).
I liked it!
Aiba released in my hand with a whine, his tightness bringing me over the edge. I collapsed next to him, panting heavily.
Gosh, that was the best orgasm of my life!
"That was... amazing." Aiba panted.
"Yes."
Grabbing a blanket, Aiba lied next to me. I hugged him against me, covering our bodies carefully. We fell asleep quickly in each other's arms, Aiba's face in my neck.
****
I opened my eyes with a moan, feeling the sun on my face. Yawning, I stretched my body but soon, froze. I was naked. I was naked on a sofa and on my chest was Aiba's head.
Holy crap! I was in big shit! I struggled, waking Aiba up.
"Hello." Aiba stroked his eyes while I was looking for my clothes in panic.
"Hi..." I mumbled, taking my boxer and my jeans.
"Sho?"
"I... I have to go... I'm working." I said precipitancy.
"But..."
I didn't wait for his answer and left the café quickly as the coward I was.
"Where have you been?" Yuki asked me when I opened our apartment's door.
"I..."
"You didn't come back for one night, I was worried sick. Where were you, Sho!" Yuki yelled.
"I fell asleep at my office." I lied.
"Or you were with another girl." Yuki snapped, approaching me.
"I would never do that to you and you know it." I replied.
"You don't smell perfume..." She whispered.
"Of course I'm not. What did you believe?!" I exclaimed.
"I'm sorry, I believed you were with another girl." She sobbed. Well, at least it wasn't a girl. I thought.
"It's okay dear." I hugged her, guilt invading my heart.
"Sho, make love to me." Yuki looked at me with pleading eyes.
"Okay..."
I grabbed my head with both hands. Yuki was sleeping next to me. I had made love to her but without any pleasure. Every time I was moving, I had Aiba's face in my mind.
I really was in big shit.
"What happened Sho, you don't seem concentrated." Jun asked me the next day.
"I'm tired that's all." I smiled weakly.
"I'm here if you need to talk, you know it."
"Thanks."
Taking my suitcase, I stood up, ready to leave. I stopped when I saw Jun kissing Ohno roughly in the corridor.
"I love you so much, teddy, you know that?" Jun whispered, stroking Ohno's face. The love shining in his eyes made me understand what Aiba meant the previous night.
"Yes master. I love master too."
"Good boy, come on." Jun bit his lip before leading him toward his office.
Shaking my head, I drove to Rakuen's café.
"Irasshaimase!" Aiba beamed but his face turned white when he saw me.
"Hi." I whispered.
"What do you want?" Aiba frowned.
"I'm sorry for leaving yesterday morning."
"It's okay."
"Aiba, I also wanted to apologize for what happened between us." I stated, lowering my eyes.
"What do you mean?"
"I was drunk, I didn't know what I was doing."
"Will that be your lame excuse every time you want to escape?!" Aiba snapped.
"I'm sorry. I was lost... It was amazing what happened but... I love Yuki." I whispered.
"No, you don't. If you loved her you would have never fucked me!" Aiba shouted, customers turning their heads toward us. I blushed.
"I was lost... I... I'm sorry but I can't leave her."
"Why? Why are you making yourself suffer, Sho? Why are you lying to yourself and living in this fucking fake perfect life?!" Aiba snapped.
"I like the way I am. I like my life."
"Of course, that's why you put your cock in my ass!" Aiba yelled. I blushed when I heard lots of whispers. I wanted to disappear in a hole.
"I... I'm sorry. I won't come again..." I whispered, tears filling my eyes.
"Get out! Get out, bastard!" Aiba cried. I hated myself for making him cry. I wanted to hug him, to wipe his tears away.
I ran away, tears rolling down my cheeks. I had to do that even if it meant making Aiba suffer. It was the good decision.
So, why was my heart aching so much?
The next day, I jumped when I heard the door of the office slamming roughly.
"Sakurai Sho, you really are the biggest bastard of Japan, how did you dare?!" Someone shouted, grabbing my shirt to punch me violently.
"Kazu?!" I gasped, my eyes wide open.
To be continued...
A/N: Ouch, I think some readers won't like Sho's attitude with Aiba xD but as wrong as he is, he has his reasons for acting like that xD you'll understand everything in the final chapter xD see you soon and comments are always <3