Blah *Too Tired To Think of Subject*
Sleep
It’s becoming a serious issue. Last night I barely got four hours of it. A look at my fit bit log tells me I was restless 35 times in the night, awake for over an hour (though it was definitely more than that). I don’t get this. It’s starting to mentally affect me (memory wise, which is upsetting me), and I am just cranky and moody all day which I hate.
When I get home, I have about 5 hours to get things that I enjoy done; what I call ‘me time’. My ‘me time’ is VERY precious to me lol. Whether it is reading, writing, watching television or playing video games, I need my ‘unwinding’ time after a full day of social interactions at work. That is really NOT a lot of time (considering when my dad was alive and would take my mom to work in the mornings, I had about 10 hours-it’s a big chunk of ‘me’ time cut). Now that I have to be up every day at 6am, I have to go to bed earlier (and it’s a sacrifice I don’t mind making if I could just actually SLEEP during that time).
I really hope that when I get back to exercising that will help me out at night. I am trying to decide if I should exercise right when I get home OR, if I should shut off everything an hour before bed, do my exercise (to burn off energy/light/mind stimulation) and then go to bed. Maybe for the first week I’ll try the latter one and see if that helps. If not, I’ll try the first one. My mind is just so active when I lie down, no matter HOW exhausted I am. Ugh. I hope this helps … or else I don’t know what else to do. Sigh.
World of Warcraft
So I am back to this, as I mentioned in previous post (or two-telling ya, my memory is shit these days ugh). I am working on Loremaster achievement on my new main character (basically do every quest from every zone). There are LOTS of zones/quests so this will take me some time, but was happy to get three small ones, on one of the big continents, done last night (for example this one continent has about 20 zones with 40-100 quests each). I am also working on leveling my pets via pet battles and trying to capture unique ones I don’t have (think Pokemon-ish lol).
This is one of the little guys I’m leveling lol - Ain’t he a cutie? HAHA
And a screen capture of my new main character. She’s a paladin. Look at that mismatched gear, hahaha … from leveling. She looks silly.
So that at least made me happy for the night (even if I didn’t sleep after it).
Random
On the way into work I drive past this construction site, where this huge cylindrical thing has been hanging for a few days. I don’t know why, but that totally freaks me out. It’s been hanging on that crane, and today I decided to snap a picture of it while I was at the light (it had just turned green when I clicked the picture LOL). What if the cable on that thing snaps? And yeah … that freaks me out LOL.
As you can see, we saw sun today for most of the morning and it was lovely. I think it’s pretty sad that the sun BURNED my eyes for most of the ride in lol that is how long we’ve been in the ‘dark’ with overcast days. ROFL It made me laugh when I got in and thought about it and then relayed it to Lorraine who laughed too. But, it’s getting overcast again now. Though, Lorraine did say it’s supposed to hit 90s most of next week. This is what I can’t stand with our weather here. It goes from one extreme to the next in a blink of an eye. There is no gradual 70’s, 80’s weather THEN 90’s in a few weeks… its immediately low 60s to 90s! All winter long, one day would be 50’s and the next would be 20’s and snowing/sleeting. It just boggles my mind these extreme differences.
Father’s Day
I keep getting emails and promotional stuff for great Father’s Day gifts and it’s really upsetting. I know it’s not on purpose (I mean I’m not that delusional), and this isn’t even the first Father’s Day without him because Father’s day was literally a week after my father passed away last year (that was rough).
Every time I see one of these emails or am browsing around on amazon, this ache just presses down on my chest and I have to force myself to quickly distract myself or I’ll get overly emotional. I know it’s going to happen, but if I can put it off long enough, I will try (the breakdown). Friday marks ONE year… I can’t believe I’ve lived without my dad for a whole year.
I took the day off because I just don’t want to be at work (I’ll be emotional and people annoy me so much and that is just not a good combination). I will do everything I possibly can to ignore my feelings/emotions (so I will either sleep most of the day or play crazy amount of video games the whole day-not sure which yet).
Mom wants to visit his grave site on Saturday, so we will be doing that and going to Mass that night. I know it’s not healthy to avoid dealing with emotions, but when it comes to my father’s loss they are just so overwhelming, and I really dislike feeling that out of control. I know one day it will seriously bite me in the ass, but I guess it’s a risk I’m willing to take.
Memes
I don’t like ending entries on sad notes, sooooooo … a couple of memes that made me chuckle.
It’s becoming a serious issue. Last night I barely got four hours of it. A look at my fit bit log tells me I was restless 35 times in the night, awake for over an hour (though it was definitely more than that). I don’t get this. It’s starting to mentally affect me (memory wise, which is upsetting me), and I am just cranky and moody all day which I hate.
When I get home, I have about 5 hours to get things that I enjoy done; what I call ‘me time’. My ‘me time’ is VERY precious to me lol. Whether it is reading, writing, watching television or playing video games, I need my ‘unwinding’ time after a full day of social interactions at work. That is really NOT a lot of time (considering when my dad was alive and would take my mom to work in the mornings, I had about 10 hours-it’s a big chunk of ‘me’ time cut). Now that I have to be up every day at 6am, I have to go to bed earlier (and it’s a sacrifice I don’t mind making if I could just actually SLEEP during that time).
I really hope that when I get back to exercising that will help me out at night. I am trying to decide if I should exercise right when I get home OR, if I should shut off everything an hour before bed, do my exercise (to burn off energy/light/mind stimulation) and then go to bed. Maybe for the first week I’ll try the latter one and see if that helps. If not, I’ll try the first one. My mind is just so active when I lie down, no matter HOW exhausted I am. Ugh. I hope this helps … or else I don’t know what else to do. Sigh.
World of Warcraft
So I am back to this, as I mentioned in previous post (or two-telling ya, my memory is shit these days ugh). I am working on Loremaster achievement on my new main character (basically do every quest from every zone). There are LOTS of zones/quests so this will take me some time, but was happy to get three small ones, on one of the big continents, done last night (for example this one continent has about 20 zones with 40-100 quests each). I am also working on leveling my pets via pet battles and trying to capture unique ones I don’t have (think Pokemon-ish lol).
This is one of the little guys I’m leveling lol - Ain’t he a cutie? HAHA
And a screen capture of my new main character. She’s a paladin. Look at that mismatched gear, hahaha … from leveling. She looks silly.
So that at least made me happy for the night (even if I didn’t sleep after it).
Random
On the way into work I drive past this construction site, where this huge cylindrical thing has been hanging for a few days. I don’t know why, but that totally freaks me out. It’s been hanging on that crane, and today I decided to snap a picture of it while I was at the light (it had just turned green when I clicked the picture LOL). What if the cable on that thing snaps? And yeah … that freaks me out LOL.
As you can see, we saw sun today for most of the morning and it was lovely. I think it’s pretty sad that the sun BURNED my eyes for most of the ride in lol that is how long we’ve been in the ‘dark’ with overcast days. ROFL It made me laugh when I got in and thought about it and then relayed it to Lorraine who laughed too. But, it’s getting overcast again now. Though, Lorraine did say it’s supposed to hit 90s most of next week. This is what I can’t stand with our weather here. It goes from one extreme to the next in a blink of an eye. There is no gradual 70’s, 80’s weather THEN 90’s in a few weeks… its immediately low 60s to 90s! All winter long, one day would be 50’s and the next would be 20’s and snowing/sleeting. It just boggles my mind these extreme differences.
Father’s Day
I keep getting emails and promotional stuff for great Father’s Day gifts and it’s really upsetting. I know it’s not on purpose (I mean I’m not that delusional), and this isn’t even the first Father’s Day without him because Father’s day was literally a week after my father passed away last year (that was rough).
Every time I see one of these emails or am browsing around on amazon, this ache just presses down on my chest and I have to force myself to quickly distract myself or I’ll get overly emotional. I know it’s going to happen, but if I can put it off long enough, I will try (the breakdown). Friday marks ONE year… I can’t believe I’ve lived without my dad for a whole year.
I took the day off because I just don’t want to be at work (I’ll be emotional and people annoy me so much and that is just not a good combination). I will do everything I possibly can to ignore my feelings/emotions (so I will either sleep most of the day or play crazy amount of video games the whole day-not sure which yet).
Mom wants to visit his grave site on Saturday, so we will be doing that and going to Mass that night. I know it’s not healthy to avoid dealing with emotions, but when it comes to my father’s loss they are just so overwhelming, and I really dislike feeling that out of control. I know one day it will seriously bite me in the ass, but I guess it’s a risk I’m willing to take.
Memes
I don’t like ending entries on sad notes, sooooooo … a couple of memes that made me chuckle.