Long Arse Post
I feel like I don’t belong anywhere … in the blogging world. I don’t know how to explain it really. I don’t feel comfortable blogging at Dreamwidth anymore; though I have a couple of friends there I would still like to read. I came back to Livejournal a few months ago, hoping to find this home again, but it hasn’t really felt that way. I don’t really know how to explain it. Maybe I am outgrowing blogging in general, but I don’t know if that is it either because I love to write and express how I feel, etc …
And I’ve had a LOT to write about these last few days, and even with insane boredom at work, and many opportunities to write, I didn’t. Why am I writing now? Good question. I guess the dam is breaking … but I want to always write, not just when I feel like I can’t hold it in anymore.
So what has been going on? I guess I’ll do a bullet point since it’s easier and will help me organize my thoughts.
- Firstly, I was really sick last week. Pretty bad cold with all the yucky phlegm stuff, a horrible sore throat and just feeling pretty horrible. I spent the entire weekend in bed, but I do feel better now … but still, an entire weekend down the tubes. Especially since on Saturday I was supposed to go to the Haunted Trail with everyone, but I was in no shape to leave the house … I heard it was pretty darn scary too. /pout
- Work has been weird. Usually I am complaining with how busy things are, but things have been so dead lately and it’s got me worried. Dead is NOT a good thing. It means we do not have too many applicants and that is never good. I know T is trying her heart out to get people in the door, but this year is a reflection of previous year’s recruitment efforts and it is just showing everyone how little V did in this area; especial near the end when she was just ready to bounce. So things have been really slow … like ‘pull my hair out’ type of slow.
- Tied to all that boredom … Thursday I finally gave in and started writing another story, so now I’m kind of writing two books … one a YA and one a regular paranormal fiction. No idea if I will finish either one, but I’m at least writing? Lol I also wrote a semi-poem but I hate it so I didn’t post it.
- I feel absolutely … lost. I don’t know why. I feel trapped and confused and … trapped. I get this feeling sometimes when I’ve been at a job for more than a few years, and this is nearing my longest at a job ever (my longest was almost 7 years … I’ll hit 7 in April 2013). So I am feeling … trapped. I hate the feeling. I know it’s because I am not really doing much with my life and I hate that too. Man, all those plans I used to have… Never plan… things never work out LOLOL /pessimism.
- Positive news: I finished a couple more books (inching my way to my new goal of 70). I read one this past week/end that had me balling my eyes out. The emotions that she was able to bring across the page to me ... ugh. I cried so very much. Once I was actually sitting at my desk and reading it on my phone and I was tearing up and I had to stop reading … so good. Now I am reading the sequel to it, and I am finding it’s good but not as good as the first …but I am still enjoying it nonetheless. The emotions were just so raw in that first novel … good stuff man. I love when authors get emotional reactions out of me.
- In other happier news, SQUEE worthy television shows have returned!!!! As usual, Vampire Diaries was amazing … Ugh. I love that show so much. It sucks having to wait 7 full days for the next episode and I swear if there is a break any time soon I will flip LOLOL. Anyone else on my list watch this? What’d you think of the first episode? This is the one show that I am always on the edge of my seat with … no matter WHERE in the season they are, every episode is so explosive.
I also caught Arrow, which is a brand spanking new show to the CW. I liked it … it hasn’t quite hooked me just yet, but if they build on the character a bit more, I can see it being one of my favorites and not just because the lead is smokin’ HAWT! (:
Beauty and the Beast also premiered on Thursday right after tVD and I am already in love with it. I love Kristin Kreuk. It is so good to see her in a role where she is kicking ass, and holy crap … I really did not think someone that small could move so BAD-ASS-LY (yes, it is now a word). The fight scene in the subway? Hawt beyond belief … she really moved great, and she’s so cute and quirky … I love it. I also like how they filmed the scene … a little ‘300’ mixed in with some shadowing and slow motion … Let’s you really see the punches/moves. VERY good. And the beast? Hmm, I thought he would be a bit more beastly, but you can’t really make him TOO ugly, now can you? :D Still… when he turns ‘hulk-like’ … it is fun (: Even if he does mean it to be scary. I think it might be scarier if it wasn’t directed toward Kristin. So yeah, interested to see where this show goes.
And my Elementary show wasn’t on this week due to the debate, but I am really looking forward to it next week. My Thursday’s are pretty full of pretty good shows. The guy who plays Sherlock is great, and I love that they have a female Watson. Also, I am hearing a lot of people comparing this to other “Sherlock-type” shows, which is fine and dandy … but it is its own show, so while it may have some things that are similar, it will differ as well… which can be good or bad, but meh. I personally am loving this twist as well as who they have chosen to play the parts in the show … and I do enjoy the original Sherlock.
Also saw Once Upon a Time last night. It was nice to finally catch it on its actual NIGHT. I am really enjoying this show, and am glad that I decided to catch up on it before the new season started. The characters are amazing, and the little twist they threw in last night was nice … I am curious as to what ‘she’ is going to do now that the portal is gone. I won’t spoil it though, for those who haven’t watched. I can only imagine the revenge that woman wants right now … And I’m shocked at how much Regina is cooperating … she was such a big bad wolf in last seasons, but I can see them building over to someone else who is bigger and badder … curiouser and curiouser!
I also started watch The Walking Dead last night. I got three episodes in and had to take a short break. While I can do some gore, I think 3 episodes every couple of days will be my limit with that show. So far, I do like it, even with all the blood and guts and yuckiness … and I am really curious to see how this ‘triangle’ is going to pan out. Personally I’m pissed with the wife, but I don’t know the full story yet, so … gotta see. - In other news, our Chicago trip is confirmed! We just booked the rooms today … and seeing as the trip is in two weekends, it’s a good thing (: I am finally excited … eeee! I can’t believe in two weeks I will be in Chicago! I never thought I would see that city (: I will be sure to take lots of photos … you guys will be sick and tired of them (: We need to plan, nineteen68!! I am thinking breakfast on Sunday? Or a dinner on Saturday night? We get into the airport around 11am (if there are no delays and our layover is on time) … and we’re probably going to sight see as much as we can in the daylight on Saturday… then go check in, then head back for a dinner … but a breakfast could work too. Um and since we only have on car rented, it might be ‘all of us’… LOL WHICH, if is not cool with you, I would totally understand. BUT … if they ask, I do NOT blog, and that is not how we met. HAHAHAHHHA (: Okay we’ll talk strategy. I’ll message ya soon with where we’ll be on Sunday and if that is closer to you so we can meet.
- Some other non-important things have been buzzing around in my head … about folks in my life, etc. It’s nothing major and I think it’s just the time of year when I think about this kind of stuff. Speaking of time of year, I really need to get in gear with my shopping for the holidays … usually by now I have half of it done and as of right now? Zilch. I am slacking on myself! Lol … I think I know what I am getting most people on my list for once, which is nice.
Anyway … I hope that you are all doing well. Gonna go and try to catch up on what I’ve missed. Keep warm out there! :D