Figured it out
So I haven't posted anything in a while. Sorry. I've actually been getting out some.
I saw one girl for a while, but there was no spark and we drifted apart after a couple weeks. I've been on a few first dates, and had a few that didn't even make it that far. I'm having a hell of a time making it to the second date even when I feel like I'm dating down. So I figured it out. It feels like I'm just not worth the effort. I feel like I'm approaching a very dark place, and I've decided to take some time off drinking ( After tonight ) cause that's likely not helping. Just the last 2 girls weren't willing to try, and the one before that left town and we didn't get together after.
Now I think I'm worth the effort. Last weekend I did not sleep with the drunk girl that was all over me cause I wanted to respect myself in the morning. I was not sober, but found the will power. I then hung out the next day and helped her clean up then move furniture, and that's not re-arranging furniture but moving across town. And now I'm not worth a second date. WTF?
So dating life sucks. Not getting to the sleeping together part sucks.