i suck
he hates me. i deserve it. i can't call anymore. times are different. i wait for him to call me. he still calls me. but why? i feel i do nothing for him anymore. he will never look at me the same way. i have failed him. i have failed myself. the one perfect love torn away. i suck. i can't do anything right. i am in trouble with the law. he yelled at me. he doesn't care. he shouldn't anyway. i dropped out of school and haven't gone back. i hate my job. all these things were okay at one time. i had him once. he made me very happy. i still melt. absolutely nothing is happy right now. i moved somewhat recently. there is nothing for me here. i can't stop thinking about him no matter what i do. but i know i don't deserve him. not even close. he will find better. i hope he does. i still care about him. i hope the best for him. hopefully better things come soon. good night everyone