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ok...i'm feeling kinda sad. i think it's because i feel incredibly huge at the moment...so i'm going to make an effort to lose a bit so that i feel more comfortable with myself. i'm thinking college will be easy enough to help me lose it, considering i won't have any break..or if i do it won't be much. then at lunch i'll be able to control what i eat then. i know it's not good of me at all to be thinking like this...but i have to...and...i will do it, because it's a part of me that i will never lose, and i don't wish to lose it. like a nun with her virginity, she doesnt wish to lose it and never will. similar circumstances here, just replace virginity with an eating disorder and hey presto!