so i need to lose weight/fat.

im going to

1. eat better- no fast food whatsoever, healthy stuff
2. go running- if i can make it
3. do laps during the summer

i just feel so gross and out of shape. and not all my clothes are fitting. so if you see me eating fast food or something bad, knock it out of my hands

i hate feeling like shit. not physically.
emotionally.
WHY CANT I BE HAPPY?

scratch that last post. cause i think its completely different now.
what the hell.
thats all im gonna say

last night was just great.
i think i might have finally found the right guy

this shows how defensive my guy friends can be:

last night, i didnt play in rhapsody in blue so i sat with this guy matt in the audience until we had to go up for different songs. my guy friends that were there wanted to go up to him and make sure he didnt do anything weird. ha gotta love it.

tonight actually turned into a good night. i was really really nervous and everything for the most of the day. i got to the rehearsal and was completely intimidated by the music they were playing. i ate dinner with the WO stage crew, and they were interesting ( Read more... )

new years resolutions:

1. eat better
2. achieve a flat stomach
3. be happy about whereever i wind up at school

merry christmas ( Read more... )

this is bad ( Read more... )

i think it would be crazy to drive to philly to see his band play. i dont even know him. but i want to.

we have so much in common, but we're in such separate worlds. even if it was love at first sight or some of that bullshit it could never work. it sucks. if only he lived up here.

THIS BLOWS

one of my favorite songs came on the radio today on the way back to school during lunch. my friends thought it was crazy i was singing along.

it made me happy