Ten thousand spoons when all you need is a knife.

[matan4il]

Isn't it ironic, the way that during the hardest times in our lives, that's when we tend to pull the furthest away from our friends? I seem to think so. But at the same time, it's when those friends reach out to you and don't let you pull away too far that you're reminded what friendship is all about. So thank you, you know who you are (I hope). ♥

Comments

[dazzamre]

HONEY! *clings* I'm so, so sorry about everything you've been through, and I hope your mom is doing better. *hugs* I've missed you, and I wish I had a more coherent reply to this, but I'm just so happy to see you again. As for letting people down, taking care of yourself is more important than anything else, just remember that. We're not going anywhere. *huggles*

AI: I'm gonna be dialing my fingers off for Adam. ;) I'm actually surprised by how little impact his sexuality has had on people here. I know extremely conservative people who support him. It makes me happy. I think Kris is extremely talented and adorable, but it's all about Adam for me.

*hugs* I love you, and I'm thinking about you, and I'm here if you need anything at all. *more hugs*

[matan4il]

Sweetie! *clings right back with so much love and just a bit of over-squishing-ness* You know something that helped? A LOT? Your care package, for the kids and for me! ♥ ♥ ♥ And also just thinking about you from time to time and simply knowing that you're still here and still care, because that's just the kind of amazing person that you are. *hearts you so freaking much* And yes, I think I'm getting better at this taking care of myself business. I even say 'no' to the kids from time to time, which is progress for me. :"> Okay, not on any major issues, but still, from time to time when I am too exhausted, I do tell kids that they'll have to sit in my lap later when usually I try to figure out a way to fit in as many kids as I possibly can on just two legs. Why DID God give us only 2 legs, but 30 kids per kindergarten? Unfair. *pouts*

And I love you. Thank you so much for being a source of strength for me, darlingest. *snuzzles deepI am going to as well! I have never voted on AI before and I never even tried to figure out whether

[dazzamre]

*blushes* I didn't do anything. I'm just glad you and the kids liked the package. I had so much fun putting it together. *hugs* I've been subbing again lately, and every time I'm with the kids it makes me think of you. I know it can be hard to tell them no, but I'm glad you're doing what you have to do. 30? I was exhausted the other day when I only had 12!

*gets all sentimental and smushy* Sweetie, you are one of the most amazing people I know, and I am so much better for having you in my life. I adore you. :D

I have no idea how votes work internationally other than hearing a few Canadian friends complain that they couldn't vote. I guess I just assumed it wasn't possible. If it isn't, I'll vote enough for the both of us, and if it is, happy voting! *squees* I love Israel, too! I think that's awesome that he's already getting radio play there.

No one has a version of AdamI don't think I've heard it put better anywhere. That's exactly what drew me to him, although the makeup and nail polish didn't hurt. :P

[matan4il]

*will never ever stop smooshing or squishing you* Yes, you did and I can't even begin to tell you how much. I swear, I wish I had a video recorder to show you the kids and how much good it did them, not to mention me. I just couldn't stop grinning! <3 And awwwww, really, the kids make you think of me? That just... I think there are moments when you can feel your heart physically expand and hearing that was one of those moments. <3<3<3 *NEVER lets go* And yes, 30. XD On the one hand it is insanely exhausting, on the other hand, I love every one of them so much, I wouldn't want to have even one kid less. Though I'm rather grateful for times when 25 are running around in the yard, trying to catch each other, and I only have to tend to 5 for a few minutes. ;p

Sweetie, you are one of the most amazing people I know, and I am so much better for having you in my life. I adore you.That is so much the way that I feel about you, my darlingest. I'm always reminded to count my blessings when I think of you and how easy it would have been for us

[pabzi]

I am happy to see you here. I was wondering where you went...I'm sorry that I didn't reach out and try to find you, but I couldn't at the time for many reasons, but I do miss you and really hope that you get better soon, and I do want to talk to you, very much so, so give a poke when you get a chance, if at all.

[matan4il]

And I am happy to see you, hon! *huggles* I've missed you too and oh, I hope everything's okay with you? And I've been wanting to come back here and resume our conversations SO MUCH, I can't even tell you. I know we'll get there, right? ;) I promise to poke you every single chance I get. *snuggles you up tight* <3

[pabzi]

I've wanted you to come back too! *Hugs*

[matan4il]

I have something to post especially for you in a short while, so the poking will begin soooooooooon, beware! ;D *snuggles LOADS* <3

By the way, what are you doing for Shavuot?

[dear_prudence]

wow - you have a lot going on! i am sorry that fms meds aren't funded and that you're having to jump through hoops to get the treatment you need. that's so unfair :(
but it think it's great that you're being kind to yourself with the expectations that you're setting etc.

and i'm really sorry about your grandmother. i hope your mum is ok... it must be so terrible for her :(

if i can ever do anything that will help, just let me know.
xoxoxox

[matan4il]

Oh, honey! *huggles tons* Yeah, life's been quite the ride lately. ;) And it's downright shameful. The Israeli medical system is supposed to be a good one, but I guess they're new to the whole issue of FMS and everything involved is expensive, so it's all one big FAIL. But I'm still hopeful that it'll be okay eventually. And in a way, it's teaching me a lot and it's part of what makes it easier for me to be kinder to myself as you've said. Irony again, ha? *g*

Yes, it really is hard on her. But right now she gets to be all excited about apartment hunting and such, I think it's doing her a lot of good. :) Plus, I got the impression she wasn't 100% sure my sis and I would come through for her, I don't really know why, but she saw that we did and I'm sure that also helped.

if i can ever do anything that will help, just let me know.You lovely girl, you. Thank you so much! *huggles* Did I tell you that every time I get to use this icon that you've made for me, I couldn't be happier? It's perfect and I love that you've made it so. That

[dreamerren]

Honey! I had been wondering where you've been and I'm so sorry for all the health problems you've been having but I'm so glad you a post from you because you always make me smile *hugs* We are gonna be here no matter what, so just take care of yourself and continue to be the awesome person that you are

[matan4il]

Meep, sweetie! *huggles BIG* I'm so glad to see you! I've been missing you and wondering how you've been. *squishes you* And awww, I do? That's got to be one of the loveliest things ever. And I hope you know that you make me smile as well! :D *mwah

[dreamerren]

Oh I've been around :) I've been doing some stuff associated with David Cook and working and just sort of bumping along in my own world. But I didn't want you to think I had forgotten about you, because I totally have not and seeing your entry this morning was so exciting

[matan4il]

*lol* Don't apologize, I love babbling, especially when you're the one doing it because you raise some wonderful points. And to be honest, I want to agree with you much more than I want to agree with me in the sense that I think in a better world, this finale would have been perfect no matter which one of the boys would have won because I agree, they're both very obviously incredibly talented and great guys as well, and I also agree that at this point, what comes after the competition, which is what truly matters, no longer depends on what happens on the show this week quite anywhere near as much as it did a week ago

[matan4il]

*snugglecliiiiiiings* You know, you're one of the main people I was thinking of when I said that I feel like I'm letting people down. You deserve so much, hon, I wish I could have been a better friend to you. But right now, I'm simply grateful that we've met, that's all. *smooshes* And am so sorry that I made you worry. I'll try my best not to stay away too much, though we both know I can't promise anything. *hearthearthearts*

[matan4il]

*loveloveloves* You know what? We can make a pact, promising each other we'll do our best, and it would be like our Merlin-ish secret pact or something. ;) *huggles and adores on you* I hope uni isn't being too stressful right now? How's it going?

*huggles infinitely* <3333333