Dec 23, 2012 17:14
Jean-Pierre has been telling me, during my texts to him throughout the day, that he wanted to discuss this "boy word." This was what the fallout of our conversation was when he was on his way home in his car.
Okay, he's not ready to call me "Sir" but he doesn't feel quite right just calling me Justin. He wasn't ready to tell me how he felt about "boy" other than there was part of him that liked it. Also, that he wasn't ready to use that word for himself. I could keep calling him a "good boy" because he liked that but it wasn't something he was ready to become. I told him that he was one whether he wanted to be or not, but I could understand not being ready to admit it.
He teared up a little and said that he wanted to be good for me. I told him that was a big thing to admit. He sobbed that he knew and that it was hard. I told him that I understood. I told him then that he could jerk off once this evening as a reward for admitting something so hard. He whispered, "Yes, Sir." Then he started to really bawl. I said, "Good boy." I kept saying reassuring things until he settled down. So he said he was in his car and couldn't be crying and driving. I told him to call me again in about an hour and to think about the word boy again. He said, "Yes, Sir. I will." I said, "You know I care about you and want your journey to be a good one. I won't hurt you." He choked up and said, "I know, Sir." I said, "Good boy. Very natural." Now get home safe. I'll talk to you in about an hour.
emotional,
bdsm,
jean-pierre,
subs,
d/s