Strange Visitation
So I lay down for a nap and a have a few regular dreams. Then I wake up and get a drink of water. I remember because I had to get up to get it from where my computer is. I lay back down and fall back to sleep.
Then !flash! I'm in a small 2 bedroom apartment. Someone else is there and the are moving around furniture. He seem like he's on a mission. I was in the living room. I can feel an instant attraction to him. He's talking to me but I can't hear him. I'm afraid of what's going on but, in an attempt to be of some use so he doesn't kick me out I start to fold sheets with him in the bedroom. Pastel, light colored sheets of every kind. I start to fold one and I feel a tap on my back. I turned around nervously. He said, clear as a bell, in a stranger's voice, "I love you so truly and deeply," my fears of him not wanting me there went away and he was coming towards me to kiss me. I couldn't see his face clearly but it angelic... to me. I knew it wasn't everybody's version of beautiful but it my version beautiful Then: !Flash! I'm standing in the living room and he's taking these dark sheets off the bed and I said, "What's going on?" He says, in return, "You're getting out... and that dog shortly after you." This person looks like Steve II from behind. He's not facing me. Same Steve II voice. And there stands Second John, looking very sad, at the front door with his hand held out to me.
The only difference between the two... Dakota. I didn't see her in the first one except going into the second bedroom briefly. So it could just be that the dark one happened to mention her or that she has to die before I meet the perfect man for me. And I'll be crushed when she dies. I don't want her to have to die for me to meet the right man for me. Do I have to have EVERYTHING taken away from me first? And John was there in the dark dream but I didn't see him or notice him at any time during the light dream. What I took for being afraid of being kicked out was just him being very focused, in the light dream.
In the dark dream Steve II was definitely cold to me. But Steve II is kinda cold so maybe that's why he was the one in my dream being cold. But everything seems so wonderful in the light dream. Everything is perfect. It seems so heavenly. The dark dream it's all so very matter of fact of get your shit and get out and take your dog with you. Like he was just done with me. I wasn't loved anymore. Another thing that occurs to me, in the dark dream, John reached out to me from the doorway and I noticed that he had wings this time. And not your cliché white fluffy wings but ribbons of pure light energy that flowed in and out of the doorway. It was beautiful and graceful and breathtaking.
Anyway, that was my visitation. I don't know if it's a warning of things to come or telling me that the perfect man is there but only after Dakota passes away, which would mean another 8-10 years, barring illness or injury. I don't like that number. That puts me dangerously close to 40. I don't want to be 40 and wondering if dream man's going to show up because Dakota dies and I'm left completely alone.
Then !flash! I'm in a small 2 bedroom apartment. Someone else is there and the are moving around furniture. He seem like he's on a mission. I was in the living room. I can feel an instant attraction to him. He's talking to me but I can't hear him. I'm afraid of what's going on but, in an attempt to be of some use so he doesn't kick me out I start to fold sheets with him in the bedroom. Pastel, light colored sheets of every kind. I start to fold one and I feel a tap on my back. I turned around nervously. He said, clear as a bell, in a stranger's voice, "I love you so truly and deeply," my fears of him not wanting me there went away and he was coming towards me to kiss me. I couldn't see his face clearly but it angelic... to me. I knew it wasn't everybody's version of beautiful but it my version beautiful Then: !Flash! I'm standing in the living room and he's taking these dark sheets off the bed and I said, "What's going on?" He says, in return, "You're getting out... and that dog shortly after you." This person looks like Steve II from behind. He's not facing me. Same Steve II voice. And there stands Second John, looking very sad, at the front door with his hand held out to me.
The only difference between the two... Dakota. I didn't see her in the first one except going into the second bedroom briefly. So it could just be that the dark one happened to mention her or that she has to die before I meet the perfect man for me. And I'll be crushed when she dies. I don't want her to have to die for me to meet the right man for me. Do I have to have EVERYTHING taken away from me first? And John was there in the dark dream but I didn't see him or notice him at any time during the light dream. What I took for being afraid of being kicked out was just him being very focused, in the light dream.
In the dark dream Steve II was definitely cold to me. But Steve II is kinda cold so maybe that's why he was the one in my dream being cold. But everything seems so wonderful in the light dream. Everything is perfect. It seems so heavenly. The dark dream it's all so very matter of fact of get your shit and get out and take your dog with you. Like he was just done with me. I wasn't loved anymore. Another thing that occurs to me, in the dark dream, John reached out to me from the doorway and I noticed that he had wings this time. And not your cliché white fluffy wings but ribbons of pure light energy that flowed in and out of the doorway. It was beautiful and graceful and breathtaking.
Anyway, that was my visitation. I don't know if it's a warning of things to come or telling me that the perfect man is there but only after Dakota passes away, which would mean another 8-10 years, barring illness or injury. I don't like that number. That puts me dangerously close to 40. I don't want to be 40 and wondering if dream man's going to show up because Dakota dies and I'm left completely alone.