No time to waste
I can't imagine my life after 28. Absolutely no idea of what I may be doing at that time.
I thought today that I'm stuck in Russia until I clear one big karmic debt that I'm sure of. I would be happy to study or work abroad but I won't be permitted to stay anywhere permanently until we are through with this person. It feels like my whole future depends on this one relationship. When it ends I'll be sad, I guess, because for now this person is the source of so much inspiration and support for me that I will be happy to do practically anything he tells me to. I will climb all the walls he invites me on. When this ends, I will be also relieved that I can move forward and the Universe will open and show some new way for me which I now can't imagine.
So I have to everything in four (maybe two - my master's course) years. If I want a future - then no time to waste.
I thought today that I'm stuck in Russia until I clear one big karmic debt that I'm sure of. I would be happy to study or work abroad but I won't be permitted to stay anywhere permanently until we are through with this person. It feels like my whole future depends on this one relationship. When it ends I'll be sad, I guess, because for now this person is the source of so much inspiration and support for me that I will be happy to do practically anything he tells me to. I will climb all the walls he invites me on. When this ends, I will be also relieved that I can move forward and the Universe will open and show some new way for me which I now can't imagine.
So I have to everything in four (maybe two - my master's course) years. If I want a future - then no time to waste.