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rion and i are back together cuz i did something incredibly stupid while i was on this whole independent spree. and it was so outrageous and not like me at all, and that was the main reason i did it. i am not gonna go into details for the sake of the person with whom i was involved in all this, but let's just say that it was enough to bring rion to bowling green immediately after he hung up the phone. and now i totally regret it and am disgusted with myself, but that was kind of the point. it's our two year and three month anniversary today. i love him, and we're gonna try to work through this shit. but i told him last night that i cannot be his savior, and he cannot be mine. sure, we can work together and help each other out, but i don't want us to rely on each other for everything. i can't live like that. independence is my nature, and i need to show it.
oh and by the way, just because i drink every so often (and i mean, every couple of months) and i happen to enjoy it, does not qualify me as an alcoholic. i like to lose myself sometimes, but i can do that in ways other than alcohol, and i am not referring to drugs. i know that i should find a way to be comfortable in my skin without alternate substances. but just to clarify, amy does not have a drug or alcohol problem. thanks for the brochures, anyway.
oh and by the way, just because i drink every so often (and i mean, every couple of months) and i happen to enjoy it, does not qualify me as an alcoholic. i like to lose myself sometimes, but i can do that in ways other than alcohol, and i am not referring to drugs. i know that i should find a way to be comfortable in my skin without alternate substances. but just to clarify, amy does not have a drug or alcohol problem. thanks for the brochures, anyway.