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i got my lip pierced the other night, and i freaked out about it, of course. it didn't hurt anywhere near as much as i thought it would. i hope it doesn't get infected, cuz i really like it. but anyway, i got a little tipsy last night, and i fucking love that feeling. everything is moving so fast and i feel like every word that comes outta my mouth is meaningful when it's really just some drunken blubbering. i think that the main reason i like being intoxicated is because i kind of forget myself. i am so used to thinking about everything all the time. i mean, my brain is always active. for those of you who know me (which probably means all of you, cuz why the fuck would you read my personal bitch fest if you didn't know me?) you know that i might not be all that logical, but i am very reflective about everything. and maybe i need to stop and just relax, slow the fuck down for once. but i can't, except when i'm forced to slow down somehow. i always feel, at the time, that it makes me more comfortable around people but it really just makes everyone else feel uncomfortable. i need something stronger, though. oh, and i chopped all my hair off in a fit of impulsiveness. it looks shitty now, but don't worry - my friend is gonna fix it up tomorrow. so it won't look so ridiculous. but it wouldn't be the end of the world even if he didn't. maybe i should just shave it all off. i think i have already given my parents enough to shit about when i come home.