i did it!!!! this entry is actually only a paragraph
my roommate just informed me that my second to last entry was incredibly emo. in response to her comment, i will explain this further. i need to take responsibility for my actions, and if i do that, then i can move on from my mistakes and i can finally be in control. but if i don't, then i will see everything i do and say as pointless because they don't have anything to back it up. so i just had to clarify that. maybe i should get into existentialism. go external locust of control!