DAMN IT!!!!

[mashmaiden]

I did it... AGAIN. I've really gotta fucking stop falling in this freaking pattern. I'm so mad at myself, I can't explain it. Unfortunately, when this happens, my anxiety goes up, and makes it even worse again. I NEED HELP. Not just medical, I'm getting that. I need to know people have faith in me. I just need to get through this way too long rough patch in my life and move onto being productive and successful.

I JUST WANT TO BE NORMAL!!!!! IS THAT SO HARD????????