It's just the damp of the first spring rain.
If you don't recognize the above sentence, it's ok. It's from Return of the King. Eowyn complains how there is no warmth left in the air, that everything is so cold. Faramir explains that it's the damp of the first spring rain. Winter is over, spring is coming on and things will grow. It seems an allegorical point, to quote the text and listen to our first spring rain outside.
I dunno really why I type this but ok, maybe it's cathartic or meditative.
We have come through a period of long dormancy with nothing progressing and almost a stasis in life. Which is terrifying. Is this all there is? I had dreams so much bigger than this. Is this little pond of life all I get to explore?
Last year, I declared it to be the year of change. I would be afraid and still take risks, move forward, try new things and live outside of my comfort zone. And though it has taken a while to start the ball rolling, it is picking up momentum and I can say it has brought nothing but good things into my life. I won't go all new age zen on you. I believe people immediately put up walls when they hear it. But it really has done me good. I still have bad days but I can see through them now instead of swallowing them.
Maybe I just wanted to turn around, look at the Universe/Supreme Being/Cosmic Force and say "I get it. And I'm still trying to move forward."
I dunno really why I type this but ok, maybe it's cathartic or meditative.
We have come through a period of long dormancy with nothing progressing and almost a stasis in life. Which is terrifying. Is this all there is? I had dreams so much bigger than this. Is this little pond of life all I get to explore?
Last year, I declared it to be the year of change. I would be afraid and still take risks, move forward, try new things and live outside of my comfort zone. And though it has taken a while to start the ball rolling, it is picking up momentum and I can say it has brought nothing but good things into my life. I won't go all new age zen on you. I believe people immediately put up walls when they hear it. But it really has done me good. I still have bad days but I can see through them now instead of swallowing them.
Maybe I just wanted to turn around, look at the Universe/Supreme Being/Cosmic Force and say "I get it. And I'm still trying to move forward."