And even more do overs ....
.. and the do overs continue ... Verizon service call cuz my DSL was out again .. a do over..... Alberto had to redo the fix for my kitchen drawer ... another do over ... even the handrails installation had to wait an extra day ... do over...
Okay. As a shaman, I got to say, this is way overkill in the "do over" arena ... so it may be a message of some sort ...
..then after talking with a student who is also a registered nurse, it has me thinking about my diagnosis again since all the tests still show me as borderline even as I was showing the symptoms for two weeks ... maybe that is the message ... I get retested in three months anyway .. so maybe this is my chance to do over the diagnosis ... hmmm.
I am going to continue as if I have diabetes so I can lower my blood sugar levels ... but I am going to ease up some on the fetal position I have been in as I shrink away from yet another assault in the earth realm. And considering how overwhelmed I feel at the moment anyway from all the construction, I really need to slow down my normal responses and allow some new unexpected, even healing responses to reveal themselves.
So I am evoking a universal do-over! I have decided to re-do my reaction to the diagnosis, the construction and all the stress. I have decided to not be as brave or stoic, and just allow myself some additional time to let it all sink in.
And this time I am going to allow the good, joyful and uplifting parts in along with all the nerve wracking, sad and scary stuff. more later ...
Okay. As a shaman, I got to say, this is way overkill in the "do over" arena ... so it may be a message of some sort ...
..then after talking with a student who is also a registered nurse, it has me thinking about my diagnosis again since all the tests still show me as borderline even as I was showing the symptoms for two weeks ... maybe that is the message ... I get retested in three months anyway .. so maybe this is my chance to do over the diagnosis ... hmmm.
I am going to continue as if I have diabetes so I can lower my blood sugar levels ... but I am going to ease up some on the fetal position I have been in as I shrink away from yet another assault in the earth realm. And considering how overwhelmed I feel at the moment anyway from all the construction, I really need to slow down my normal responses and allow some new unexpected, even healing responses to reveal themselves.
So I am evoking a universal do-over! I have decided to re-do my reaction to the diagnosis, the construction and all the stress. I have decided to not be as brave or stoic, and just allow myself some additional time to let it all sink in.
And this time I am going to allow the good, joyful and uplifting parts in along with all the nerve wracking, sad and scary stuff. more later ...