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im so bored in this stupid town, there is nothing to do but to get drunk and work, watch tv, and sleep. plus very expensive places to live. im back at my parents house and there is no privacy, plus my dad is on summer break so there is no sleeping in anymore. i feel like im 12 again, where my opinion on anything doesnt matter and i have to do what ever my father wants. im so upset that i moved home, except for the free rent.(but really its not free). id move but i dont know where to go, plus now i have another boyfriend. and i feel so negative. i like him alot but he doesnt stimulate my mind. hes kinda boring and i feel bad for saying that because he is so nice. so now i feel stuck and i have alot of medical debt and other bills that i have to take care of and it will be a while before any of that is settled. ahhhhh im really grouchy right now. i also dont know what to do for a job, im a waitress and i dont want to do that for the rest of my life and all the better jobs require schooling which im not motivated enough to do. i feel like im in a hole i cant get out of and ther is nothing i can do. blah!