shouldn't complain
My life is pretty good. I've had some amazing experiences, seen a lot of fantastic things, been to exotic places and met a lot of truly great people. I should be happy and content with the way things have turned out and try to overlook the little inconveniences and do my best to work through my personal hardships so as not to appear ungrateful for all i have.
but it's still hard sometimes, emotionally, to be so disconnected from everyone. for every day that passes i feel i'm growing farther and farther away from the people i love.
i've been talking with my mother, and she's been upset and stressed out by her illness....i hate seeing her cry, and seeing her get up from the video chat and run from the room crying is even harder. i can't chase her, i can't comfort her. she can't see me. she has a lot on her plate right now and i can see her changing, aging and succumbing gradually in pictures.
presently, i've got no one here that i can talk to about it. I'm not even fully sure of what's going on with her and my family right now. i just know she's tired and sick and scared.
if you're reading this, rather than reply, just take a second to truly appreciate having the companionships you have. think of why you love the people you love and be thankful that you can still hold them.
but it's still hard sometimes, emotionally, to be so disconnected from everyone. for every day that passes i feel i'm growing farther and farther away from the people i love.
i've been talking with my mother, and she's been upset and stressed out by her illness....i hate seeing her cry, and seeing her get up from the video chat and run from the room crying is even harder. i can't chase her, i can't comfort her. she can't see me. she has a lot on her plate right now and i can see her changing, aging and succumbing gradually in pictures.
presently, i've got no one here that i can talk to about it. I'm not even fully sure of what's going on with her and my family right now. i just know she's tired and sick and scared.
if you're reading this, rather than reply, just take a second to truly appreciate having the companionships you have. think of why you love the people you love and be thankful that you can still hold them.