Everyone knows I'm in over my head, over my head
So I've decided something recently.
My grandmother is coming next month (from PR) so this is what I'm going to do:
I've decided to write my father a letter. I can continue living my life with a grudge, but it's just not worth it anymore. I have to be the bigger person here. He has things to tell me but he's too scared to, so I'm taking the jump. You know, he was never there for me when I needed him, but he's still my father. And I really do love him. Not a lot of people understand that concept. So I'm just going to tell him the truth. Honesty is the best policy right? Well at least most of the time anyway. I don't want risk losing him and regretting not putting things in the past...even if it took 20 years. So I'm gonna write this letter to the best of my ability (I don't know his phone # so that's not an option) and then give it to my grandmother to give to him so I know that he gets it. I'm crossing my fingers that it will go well.
So anyway, other than that...
Well a guy that I dated awhile ago (for the record we'll call him McDouche) left me a message yesterday asking me to go to his "awesome" party he's having Saturday night. You know what I did? I laughed. I scoffed. I did pretty much everything and sent back a "no". The guy has the nerve to take me out then the minute that I come back from Spring Break, he gives me the "just friends" speech. The whole speech thing? Yeah I was fine with that. I'm pretty much immune to it now really, plus I didn't know him long enough to care. But the whole 'using me for his benefit' part? Yeah that pretty much ticked me off like whoa. I consider myself a loyal friend and if you know me at all, I will bend over backwards for the people I care about, b/c that's just how I was raised to be. Yeah I can be a pushover at times, but I know myself enough to stop when people are taking advantage of me. That is my biggest pet peeve. *heavy sigh* but anyway, too little too late for him. He missed out.
Oh yes. And I just so happened to be the biggest klutz ever yesterday. In the midst of that huge rainstorm that passed by over Winter Park, I was coming out of the bank (with an umbrella even!). There is this like gigantor rain puddle in the middle of the parking lot before I get to my car. I'm all for puddles and everything, more or less in what I classify as a "perfect rain" but this was no "perfect rain" puddle. This thing was the size of Lake Baakal ok? So what do I do? My umbrella blows inside out from the frickin wind, and I get so distracted from the umbrella that I trip over my uber cool cargo pant legs straight into the puddle. Frickin. A. I'm soaking wet, and I have to be at work in 10 minutes. Thank the gods of jelly that my pants are miracle workers and dried in the amount of time it took to get to the office. So yes, that was my adventure with Mother Nature. What a sneaky wench.
Oh yeah...and SeaWorld VERY SOON. No if's, and's, or but's this time people. You will come and you will learn the awesome facts about marine animals from me dammit! You will ride Kracken til you puke! And so help me you will feed those sting rays and dolphins and you will ENJOY IT!
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