Ehh...
Man, do I hate it when I get like this. It's not depressed exactly, but...it's hard to explain. It's like a numbness, a lack of feeling and emotion. I don't know why it happens, but it does and it's completely random. I feel lost, and defeated. I usually have to blast music in my ears in order to get over it (for the time being). It's not as bad as it was before. I used to have tremors in my arms, and I couldn't sit still when I felt this way. Ugh, that was a horrible three months. The worst part of it is that I hurt other people-emotionally. I say the most horrible things- on purpose. At first I didn't understand why I did it, but now I have a theory: I think I intentionally hurt people because I'm trying to feel something. Like I said before, it's like a lack of feeling, and emotion. I think I'm trying make myself feel anything, even if it's guilt, to make sure I'm...alive, or even human. That's a heavy way of saying it, but that's what it's like.