wish i could have been there

[martini_kisses2]

i am disappointed.
i am crushed.
i want to write.
if i write then it might really be over.
why can't people be who they say they are.
why don't i know how to get over this?
I am exhausted.
I can't sleep.
I don't care.
I care too much.
I'm giving up.
this is fucking ridiculous.
I need someone.
Anyone.