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I don't think I've ever felt this depressed. It's always the worst after a school term.
I've been out of the loop for so long with my friends. I feel like I don't know them anymore. After I hang out with them I want to go hang myself. Why not stay in touch? I can't relate.
I'm going to try to write a screenplay with my story, "Weird Beard". There's not much else for me to do. I have a textbook on scriptwriting but I need a bigger, better text.
The summers are always the worst for me. The sweltering heat, the happy people. I hate the sun. I just want to play basketball at a blacktop court when it's raining. The rain makes the outside world disappear so I don't feel self-conscious.
I'm trying to decide who I want to be good friends with. My next door neighbor is leaving town soon. My friend Jorge's phone is shut off. Josh is good people but I'm skeptical that we could find something to do together that wouldn't involve just watching movies. I've seen a few lifetimes' worth of them.
I need pancakes.
If I were a gangster rapper I'd feel obligated to wear a Blazers jersey in my music video. You have to rep where you're from but the only thing is that I hate Portland and everything in it including the Blazers. Well, everything except maybe the Cinemagic, Cup & Saucer and my favorite uncle Phillip, who'll be here this week, thank God.
I really want to see more Billy Wilder films. The Apartment was good stuff. Jack Lemmon played a schnook which is not something I'm used to seeing him play. His relationship with Shirley McClaine's character is goddamn beautiful. Their love is crushed and crushed until the last scene where she tells him to shut up and deal. A great last line.
I've been out of the loop for so long with my friends. I feel like I don't know them anymore. After I hang out with them I want to go hang myself. Why not stay in touch? I can't relate.
I'm going to try to write a screenplay with my story, "Weird Beard". There's not much else for me to do. I have a textbook on scriptwriting but I need a bigger, better text.
The summers are always the worst for me. The sweltering heat, the happy people. I hate the sun. I just want to play basketball at a blacktop court when it's raining. The rain makes the outside world disappear so I don't feel self-conscious.
I'm trying to decide who I want to be good friends with. My next door neighbor is leaving town soon. My friend Jorge's phone is shut off. Josh is good people but I'm skeptical that we could find something to do together that wouldn't involve just watching movies. I've seen a few lifetimes' worth of them.
I need pancakes.
If I were a gangster rapper I'd feel obligated to wear a Blazers jersey in my music video. You have to rep where you're from but the only thing is that I hate Portland and everything in it including the Blazers. Well, everything except maybe the Cinemagic, Cup & Saucer and my favorite uncle Phillip, who'll be here this week, thank God.
I really want to see more Billy Wilder films. The Apartment was good stuff. Jack Lemmon played a schnook which is not something I'm used to seeing him play. His relationship with Shirley McClaine's character is goddamn beautiful. Their love is crushed and crushed until the last scene where she tells him to shut up and deal. A great last line.