This time around, love is a two way street
I haven't been on here in a while, but I would just like to tell the world how awesome love is.
This summer I didn't get to see Kevin. That's 3 whole months without my best friend. At the beginning I remember thinking "oh man. 3 months is nothing. We can do this. It's going to be soooo easy." Wrong. As time went on, I missed him more and more. Yes, we talked all the time. Yes, I felt more and more sure that our relationship is meant to be...but, I just missed hugging him, and cuddling, and seeing his face while we talked. You know? We told each other everything, and when we talked on the phone I got to hear his adorable laugh...but, I didn't get to see him smile.
2 weeks ago, though, we were reunited and I have never been more happy. I couldn't sit still the last 24 hours. My legs were shaking, my hands were shaking, I gah! I was just so excited!
Kevin and I have been dating now for 5 months, which really is not that long (esp compared to Erika being married for over 2 years, and Kimberly and Mark who have been together for years)...but for me, it's kinda a big deal. The thing with Kevin is that he and I were best friends before we started dating, so even though we had only been dating for a month before summer started, we were a lot closer than most couples after only a month of dating.
And I've known I loved him for a while now. I'm not sure exactly when I became sure, but I know that I love him. I wanted to tell him, but I wasn't sure if it was too soon, or how he would react, etc. It's scary. (I know Derek and I used "the L word" but I know we didn't mean it. Maybe we thought we did...but no.)
So about a week ago (on Saturday night), he and I were just laying in his bed talking and I had pretty much decided that I wanted to tell him. But I didn't know how. How do you bring that up? Do you just wait, and then non chalantly throw it out there? I don't know! So I obviously start just acting weird (cause I'm so smooth), and he's wondering what is wrong. Then I decided I'm going to make him say it first. I start asking questions, and eventually I got this story:
Kevin: "Heather, do you remember when we said good-bye before summer? I gave you a hug and kissed you good-bye before Emily drove me to the airport?"
Me: "yes"
K: "I wanted to tell you then that I loved you, but for some reason I just didn't. And then all summer I worried that I made the biggest mistake of my life in not telling you. I couldn't tell you over the summer because you can't say that for the first time over the phone or over the internet. But all summer I knew that I loved you. So, Heather, I love you"
Me: *through happy tears* (because I'm a huge ass sap) "I love you, too"
So basically...I love him. The main difference between Kevin and Derek is that I know Kevin means it, too. I can just tell by the way he looks at me whenever he says it. He makes me feel beautiful and wonderful and not just good enough, but perfect. I just feel like I can be myself around him, and he loves me for it.
That's my life as of now. For the first time, I think....wait, I know I am in love. And our relationship is better than ever. We don't always agree, but whenever we disagree we discuss things and our relationship only becomes stronger because of it. I'm never afraid to tell him about my mistakes and flaws, I don't feel I need to hide anything from him. I trust him. I'm never worried about what he's doing when we're not together, and I don't get upset when he talks to other girls.
I just love him. A lot.
This summer I didn't get to see Kevin. That's 3 whole months without my best friend. At the beginning I remember thinking "oh man. 3 months is nothing. We can do this. It's going to be soooo easy." Wrong. As time went on, I missed him more and more. Yes, we talked all the time. Yes, I felt more and more sure that our relationship is meant to be...but, I just missed hugging him, and cuddling, and seeing his face while we talked. You know? We told each other everything, and when we talked on the phone I got to hear his adorable laugh...but, I didn't get to see him smile.
2 weeks ago, though, we were reunited and I have never been more happy. I couldn't sit still the last 24 hours. My legs were shaking, my hands were shaking, I gah! I was just so excited!
Kevin and I have been dating now for 5 months, which really is not that long (esp compared to Erika being married for over 2 years, and Kimberly and Mark who have been together for years)...but for me, it's kinda a big deal. The thing with Kevin is that he and I were best friends before we started dating, so even though we had only been dating for a month before summer started, we were a lot closer than most couples after only a month of dating.
And I've known I loved him for a while now. I'm not sure exactly when I became sure, but I know that I love him. I wanted to tell him, but I wasn't sure if it was too soon, or how he would react, etc. It's scary. (I know Derek and I used "the L word" but I know we didn't mean it. Maybe we thought we did...but no.)
So about a week ago (on Saturday night), he and I were just laying in his bed talking and I had pretty much decided that I wanted to tell him. But I didn't know how. How do you bring that up? Do you just wait, and then non chalantly throw it out there? I don't know! So I obviously start just acting weird (cause I'm so smooth), and he's wondering what is wrong. Then I decided I'm going to make him say it first. I start asking questions, and eventually I got this story:
Kevin: "Heather, do you remember when we said good-bye before summer? I gave you a hug and kissed you good-bye before Emily drove me to the airport?"
Me: "yes"
K: "I wanted to tell you then that I loved you, but for some reason I just didn't. And then all summer I worried that I made the biggest mistake of my life in not telling you. I couldn't tell you over the summer because you can't say that for the first time over the phone or over the internet. But all summer I knew that I loved you. So, Heather, I love you"
Me: *through happy tears* (because I'm a huge ass sap) "I love you, too"
So basically...I love him. The main difference between Kevin and Derek is that I know Kevin means it, too. I can just tell by the way he looks at me whenever he says it. He makes me feel beautiful and wonderful and not just good enough, but perfect. I just feel like I can be myself around him, and he loves me for it.
That's my life as of now. For the first time, I think....wait, I know I am in love. And our relationship is better than ever. We don't always agree, but whenever we disagree we discuss things and our relationship only becomes stronger because of it. I'm never afraid to tell him about my mistakes and flaws, I don't feel I need to hide anything from him. I trust him. I'm never worried about what he's doing when we're not together, and I don't get upset when he talks to other girls.
I just love him. A lot.