This is to someone special thati may lose because i'm blind ....
Maybe stranger you may or not read this.Hopefully you would.I feel so distant from you,we just to be together with our friendship.I dint mean to lie....that wasnt my intention at all.I just wasnt ready to tell you that i was shit scared that i was gonna lose you because another person came into your life.I got this feeling in my stomach.....not of jealousy i know that now...but of maybe losing my place in your heart.Like if you were gonna kick me out of it.Yeah you maybe thinking that how could i think that...maybe becuase I LOVE YOU SO DAMN MUCH.You are my best friend...and i want to die knowing that i still had you...that you never went away from me.I'm so SORRY.....i know that maybe that's not enough to forgive a lie.It wasn't my intention to becuase i dont liek lying ihate it.I dont lie becuase i dont want people to lie to me.But this time i did it because i felt it...I felt liek i was being forgotten by you.All you did was talk about how you hanged with that person.That made me angry and than sad becuase that feeling was there in my heart.And My HEART ACHE SO BADLy.YOu came into my life when i needed you.And i promised myself that i would be there for you no matter what.I promised that i woould here you if you needed someone.I promise that iw ould take care of you.I promise that i would defend you no matter what the cost.I promised that i would give you happiness the best way i can.I promise NOT TO LIE...and i did that where i messed up.I will always hate myself for that one lie.That one lie that maybe has ended what we had.Something that i had cherish so much.I also promise to protect you from ANYONE who woul HURT YOU.And in a way i felt like that person that came back to your life hurt you and you let them in.Maybe it was because you had known that person longer...and you're a wonderufl person ...so you forgave.I understand that now.We are humans and make mistakes.We deserves chances.And this person needed one.But I love you and i dont want to lose you.I know what i did makes you think other wise.But If you would look at me in the eyes you see i was telling the truth.And I hope that you can look in my eyes and see the truth.And I dont want you to ever have to doubtmy word ever again.Maybe you would see that in there inside my eyes that go to my soul.