"Through with love......."
-sighs-
.....I'm so tired of ppl talking so much trash about me,I didn't do anything to them.I didn't do anything to harm them,or to make them feel bad about themselves.I dont think i deserve at all.I have given so much in the past.....just to get this piece of shit of life i have in the end.Why love anyone at all......for what.My heart has so much hatred and a desire to kill,and rip vital organs apart.What the fuck....why me ...what the hell did i do to deserve this shit.Is it to much to ask to leave me alone,and to let me live my life in peace.I feel so much anger....i'm so full of it.IDk what's going on with me...i keep remembering stuff that seem real...but they cant be.Damn and to top it all of in my fucked up life...my grandma just keeps getting much worse.I want to die ...is she does.I'm not going to take this one....is way to much.My heart will not be able to take it.ANd i refuse to lose her.....i love her too damn much...to give up on her.The darkness is holding me tighter and tighter everyday.I give up on people.....because they can be cruel.I trust ppl for nothing,Trust....ha it's funny because when ur not around they talk so much shit behind ur back.Than they talk to you as if nothing.....hahahhahah....lmfao
oooh man the irony.Mother fuckers if you only knew how i want to rip you apart like you have done it to me.I wish you away fuck.So away.......from me......i want to forget this memories.I will....but now i laugh....lol....i laugh so hard.....and than it's such a sinster laugh...because my heart hurts a lot......and it's getting colder.So damn cold....I dont think i'm ever going to be the same....i dont think i'm ever going to laugh truthfully if i dont force myself.I want to heal......this so bad.But idk....i want to have hope and faith....but they dont exist anymore.I'm pretend being me....when i'm not even close to being myself anymore.Please just leave me,my life,and soul at peace already.
.....I'm so tired of ppl talking so much trash about me,I didn't do anything to them.I didn't do anything to harm them,or to make them feel bad about themselves.I dont think i deserve at all.I have given so much in the past.....just to get this piece of shit of life i have in the end.Why love anyone at all......for what.My heart has so much hatred and a desire to kill,and rip vital organs apart.What the fuck....why me ...what the hell did i do to deserve this shit.Is it to much to ask to leave me alone,and to let me live my life in peace.I feel so much anger....i'm so full of it.IDk what's going on with me...i keep remembering stuff that seem real...but they cant be.Damn and to top it all of in my fucked up life...my grandma just keeps getting much worse.I want to die ...is she does.I'm not going to take this one....is way to much.My heart will not be able to take it.ANd i refuse to lose her.....i love her too damn much...to give up on her.The darkness is holding me tighter and tighter everyday.I give up on people.....because they can be cruel.I trust ppl for nothing,Trust....ha it's funny because when ur not around they talk so much shit behind ur back.Than they talk to you as if nothing.....hahahhahah....lmfao
oooh man the irony.Mother fuckers if you only knew how i want to rip you apart like you have done it to me.I wish you away fuck.So away.......from me......i want to forget this memories.I will....but now i laugh....lol....i laugh so hard.....and than it's such a sinster laugh...because my heart hurts a lot......and it's getting colder.So damn cold....I dont think i'm ever going to be the same....i dont think i'm ever going to laugh truthfully if i dont force myself.I want to heal......this so bad.But idk....i want to have hope and faith....but they dont exist anymore.I'm pretend being me....when i'm not even close to being myself anymore.Please just leave me,my life,and soul at peace already.