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[marsbar_55md]

I wish I had Yaqui still, it's moments like this where I need her the most. I'm so utterly lonely here, I can hardly fight it anymore, I wish I had somebody to hold me while I cry, somebody to call upon to tell me things are going to be okay, and that things are different now I'm different now. But in the reality of it all, I don't...I don't know

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[undertow]

i think the first step you made out of the old you is by going on that trip marley, by getting away from all the things that trigger you to make bad choices like doing drugs and being irresponsible. i haven't really talked to you much since you got back but i definately would like to in the next week for sure. i'm quite certain that there was something about your opportunity to go on that trip that made you want to think about your future and what you want it to be like and you should remember that now. make it your present.

[undertow]

finding a job related to the experiences you had on your trip could be something. doing security at a trucking company doesn't quite seem like your bag. and getting out of that house of yours should be second on your list i think marley. doesn't sound like your family is exactly making you happy right now. i know once i moved out of my house after graduation eventually i got along better with my mom. i remember feeling exactly the way you do, and only after a few years did she tell me that she was just frusterated with seeing me struggle so much over getting my life in order and knowing it was something she couldn't help much with, having to leave it to me to figure out. and i'm sure you will too girl. :-) give me a call sometime this week and we'll get togethor k? take care.

[ambivalenttooth]

I know I'm not the best person to talk to about those sorta things, but I'll always be here for you. We should hang out again when we both aren't working, which kinda seems like it could be difficult.

Love ya. :)

Britt