Amazed
So I know I haven't written in awhile but I've been pretty busy...juggling 2 lab reports a week, tests, and hw, writing in my journal has been one of the last things on my mind. But, I was just realizing today how much I like doing it, so here I am.
Yesterday I talked to Sarah on the phone for like a half hour and it was absolutely amazing. Every time I talk to her, I realize that we will always be best friends. She's so incredible. I still feel so close to her even though I've seen her once, for 4 hours, in the last 5 weeks. It is weird not knowing everything about her daily life anymore, though. And vice versa for her. I love when I have the time to talk to her though and we get to share our college experiences with each other. It's truly amazing how close you can still feel to someone even though you can't be with them. Because we're so cool, we've already made plans for Christmas break haha. I'm looking forward to it soo much. She's so wonderful and I have to admit things just aren't the same without having her constantly with me. When I first got to GCC, I wanted to immediately have a relationship w/ someone like I do with Sarah. I felt myself saddened when that failed. But, at the same time, what a joy that is because I know nothing will ever be like our relationship, it's unique for us. And, having a relationship with someone like that definitely takes time. I'm just impatient and I wanted it right away. It was really hard for me to go from having the best friend in the world there w/ me all the time to not knowing anyone or not really having anybody who really "knows" me. It has been a struggle. But, as with every struggle, you come out stronger. And, every day I think about her and I'm so incredibly thankful that she was put into my life. I don't deserve any of this love or friendship God has so graciously blessed me with, but I thank Him everyday for it.
I have met some really amazing people here, though. My friend Ali who's across the hall from me is so wonderful. We have such a good time together, being silly and talking about serious stuff...I feel like I can really be myself around her. My roommates are freaking sweet too. I'm so blessed with roommates that are my friends as well. We have so much fun together. The girls here are so nice and friendly. I'm starting to really feel that I'm here for a reason, not just stating the fact that I know I am. I really feel like that. I love it here. I mean, yeah, not a day goes by that I don't get stressed about something school related, but I wanted a challenging school, and that's just what GCC is. I like that I really have to work for my grades, yet things aren't competitive here. It's so great.
Anyway, on a lighter note...
Tonight I went to the gym with Ali, Rachael, and Karen. I ran on a treadmill which obviously, I'm obsessed with ;) It was fun. I've been wanting to go for awhile now so I'm glad I finally had the chance to go. I'm planning to get up early (before class) on Wednesday and hit the gym, but we'll see if I can get myself out of bed or not. ha. Anyway, also tonight we had our hall Bible study where we're studying the book of Ruth. My RA's washed our feet which was really cool. I love my GFNMS girls :) Oh, and tomorrow I'm doing a Hands of Hope walk with Ali. The money goes towards cancer patients and it's a 2 1/2 mile walk/run. I'm excited :) And, we get a free T-shirt!! How fun.
Oh, and Homecoming is this weekend!!!! I CAN'T WAIT!!!! The Daubners, my fam, and Zack (I love you, Zachary!) are coming up and I'm sooo psyched!! :) I get to hang out with the Daubners before the parade on Saturday morning! It should be a lot of fun. : P Alright, well I'm off to the SAC to get out of my dorm for awhile. Fresh air...ahh. I love everyone! :) Can't wait to see ya'll in 3 weeks!!!!
~Marissa:)