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I have tried so hard to make sense of the things happening to me this year, and it just doesn't work. I guess this is one of those times in which no matter how desparately hard I try to come to a conclusion, it will not happen.
I don't understand why I feel like I have no chance lately. It feels as if I've met everyone, or every type of person I possibly could, and well, that's it. Now, I know that is untrue, but I can't help thinking it. I want to meet someone new. Someone that fits. Someone that doesn't make me bounce back and forth with what I feel, or think I feel.
Rachel and I are constantly telling each other that we will find the right guy, we are only 19 years old. There is so much time, we are great people, etc. Blah, Blah, Blah. I don't understand it. I don't understand boys. I just don't get it.
I could sit here and analyze how I feel, tell myself that I should move on, step back, or forget about it, but it won't work. Telling myself to stop thinking about something, is like trying to find meaning in a Pauly Shore movie. (haha, rach)...it won't happen. What I will do is say to myself that I deserve better than what I've gotten and how I've been treated. That's that.
Peace.
I don't understand why I feel like I have no chance lately. It feels as if I've met everyone, or every type of person I possibly could, and well, that's it. Now, I know that is untrue, but I can't help thinking it. I want to meet someone new. Someone that fits. Someone that doesn't make me bounce back and forth with what I feel, or think I feel.
Rachel and I are constantly telling each other that we will find the right guy, we are only 19 years old. There is so much time, we are great people, etc. Blah, Blah, Blah. I don't understand it. I don't understand boys. I just don't get it.
I could sit here and analyze how I feel, tell myself that I should move on, step back, or forget about it, but it won't work. Telling myself to stop thinking about something, is like trying to find meaning in a Pauly Shore movie. (haha, rach)...it won't happen. What I will do is say to myself that I deserve better than what I've gotten and how I've been treated. That's that.
Peace.