talky talky.
ok so all the talk of going out of state, now i want to go out of state.
ah i keep going through these phases and ill definitely want to go to out of state and then i definitely want to stay in california and now i want to go out of state again.
and a lot of what i think depends on my talks with my mom, beacuse my mom is reallllly sensible and reasonable and jsut shes really good about that kind of stuff. so anyways i was talking to her today at drews game and i think massachusettes would be a really good option cuz i have family there.. well not real family but my moms best friends family, and thats the only family i have because everyone that is blood related to me died. so anyways, i could go to either like amherst, and live there, or boston college, and obviously live in boston. which are two very different things. but yeah and then if i had problems, like i got lonely or sick or something then i would have people there, as opposed to if i was in like new york or something. but i just really want to leave i think to expereince new culture, see how different their lifestyle is. im really interested, and i know id dislike the winter, but its only 4 months long and i think i could handle it. and its probably good to get out of so cal climate jsut to experience it, and im sure ill really appreciate it when i come back. and then when im done living on campus i could live with my family and then i wouldnt have to pay rent which is what the major advantage of staying at home would be, like if i went to uci or soemthing, which i never considered, but still then i get kind of the best of both worlds. so i dont know, i might grow out of this phase too, as before i was convinced i was going to either ucla ucsb ucsd or san fran. hm, we'll see. i kind of like this new idea though, i have to say. so this summer im gonna fly back there with my mom and stay at dobby's house and then look and see if i like the colleges. i think itd be fun. because the whole south idea i was talking to my mom and she said its really humid and has a zillion bugs there, and i mean it is too in the east, but she said its kinda lame. and also, theres no family in the south. but yeah who knows, cuz first id have to get in to those schools back there, which are really good schools and hard to get into like ucla/berkeley style. plus its a zillion dollars, but my mom assured me it doesnt matter and we have enough. although part of me still would rather go somewhere that was less money even though it doesnt matter. hm, whatever. but im pretty excited kind of now, like college is becoming less of a burden to get into and im more kind of excited to go look around and get to choose where i want to go. im slowly seeing it more as an opportunity than a drag. that makes me happy.
ah i keep going through these phases and ill definitely want to go to out of state and then i definitely want to stay in california and now i want to go out of state again.
and a lot of what i think depends on my talks with my mom, beacuse my mom is reallllly sensible and reasonable and jsut shes really good about that kind of stuff. so anyways i was talking to her today at drews game and i think massachusettes would be a really good option cuz i have family there.. well not real family but my moms best friends family, and thats the only family i have because everyone that is blood related to me died. so anyways, i could go to either like amherst, and live there, or boston college, and obviously live in boston. which are two very different things. but yeah and then if i had problems, like i got lonely or sick or something then i would have people there, as opposed to if i was in like new york or something. but i just really want to leave i think to expereince new culture, see how different their lifestyle is. im really interested, and i know id dislike the winter, but its only 4 months long and i think i could handle it. and its probably good to get out of so cal climate jsut to experience it, and im sure ill really appreciate it when i come back. and then when im done living on campus i could live with my family and then i wouldnt have to pay rent which is what the major advantage of staying at home would be, like if i went to uci or soemthing, which i never considered, but still then i get kind of the best of both worlds. so i dont know, i might grow out of this phase too, as before i was convinced i was going to either ucla ucsb ucsd or san fran. hm, we'll see. i kind of like this new idea though, i have to say. so this summer im gonna fly back there with my mom and stay at dobby's house and then look and see if i like the colleges. i think itd be fun. because the whole south idea i was talking to my mom and she said its really humid and has a zillion bugs there, and i mean it is too in the east, but she said its kinda lame. and also, theres no family in the south. but yeah who knows, cuz first id have to get in to those schools back there, which are really good schools and hard to get into like ucla/berkeley style. plus its a zillion dollars, but my mom assured me it doesnt matter and we have enough. although part of me still would rather go somewhere that was less money even though it doesnt matter. hm, whatever. but im pretty excited kind of now, like college is becoming less of a burden to get into and im more kind of excited to go look around and get to choose where i want to go. im slowly seeing it more as an opportunity than a drag. that makes me happy.