.:PoNdErInG:.
So yeah...I'm bored so I've decided to reflect on my life right now. I'm really happy at this stage of my life.
I know this is random but tonight I did something really satisfying, at least for me. And I know most of you will think this is kids stuff, and it probably is, but I've always had this incredible fear of rides that go upside down(FYI...my 2 biggest fears, upside down rides and rape). Tonight, I went on the Doppel Looper...not once...TWICE. I overcame my fear and I'm quite proud of myself. For a moment there I thought I was going to die a horrible squishy death, but I'm ok. Thank you to the 3 psychos that made me go on it a 2nd time: Zo, Monica, and Brian.
I remember back in high school I had internal issues with a lot of people, I cared too much what people thought, I let people get to me. And I was quite the angry cookie. But I have changed a lot, and it's even surprised me. Now there are only 2 people on campus I strongly dislike and wish they would go away...my ex (for reasons you all know), and this chick there that really bugs me and every time I see her I feel like slapping her across the face. A couple of ppl know who I'm talking about. She's a small, but tubby, little bitch that has NO RESPECT whatsoever and is full of herself...but like big time. Ahh, that felt good to let that out.
I have grown up and not let petty situations get the best of me, and thanks to that, I now have an amazing friend. I'm really sorry I didn't get to know her more when she was still @ FIU, but she truly is an admirable person and I love her to death for being the good friend she is...so yeah, shout out to my O-town Notebook sappy movie buddy lolol. <3 ya and u best get here ASAP cuz I went to the Fair tonight and I gotta start running!!! P.S. Thank u for the much needed talk...you're great!
My friends are all amazing people. These are real friends. They have proven in a few months what my so-called "friends" I used to hang out with didn't prove in years of knowing them (minus u Sandra cuz ur great and I love u to death and I wish we'd hang out more).
I have learned that a chunk of the guys in this world are either ignorant or just plain assholes.(Zo relax this doesn't apply to you). I have been lied to, insulted, cheated on, left for a country 13 hours away, heart broken, etc. It makes one become skeptical and cynical. I'm praying to God I won't be hurt again but somehow I don't see it happening. I see a future of happiness and love and great things. He truly loves me and values me. I am content. At one point I had started to wonder if there was something wrong with ME, but then I realized...nope, not the case at all. I may not be perfect, and I know my faults...but I pride myself in being a damn good girlfriend...loyal, loving, and supportive til the end...and if you don't know how to value me, your loss, sorry...I did my part. And I'm more sure of this than ever, I AM MADLY IN LOVE WITH MY BOYFRIEND, HE IS EVERYTHING TO ME. I wish for all the girls I know and love to find men as wonderful and true as my Shrek, he's one in a million.
Monica: This whole paragraph is for you, Balsera. I thank Sandra for having introduced me to you. You're the type of friend everyone wishes for but very few are lucky enough to have. I really wish you would've been my sister because besides the fact we think alike ALL the time, you're an amazing friend and confedant (I think u spell it like that). Last year I went through the biggest hell I've faced in my life, and you were there every step of the way, being such a great friend and cheering me up when I needed it the most. You wasted $10 for the Doppel Looper to make sure that if something went wrong on the ride you would die with me. We took it as a joke but being the chicken sh*t that I am, it meant a lot to me that you'd do that for me. I can be an idiot around u and u won't laugh at me, you'll join the stupidity. lol. I really meant it when I said that if my sister wasn't my sister, you'd be first pick (u know what I'm talking about). I'm so grateful to you for your friendship and support. Know that I couldn't have made it through a bunch of crap in my life without you. I'll always be here for you. I love you very much!!! 477!!!
School sucks right now. Academics-wise. I am not really feeling my classes all that much. But I know that come age 25, I will have not only a B.A., but a Law degree. No one will bring me down because I want this, and I'm going to achieve it.
Guys, never lose faith. No matter how crappy your life can get. NEVER LOSE FAITH. It's the only thing that will carry you through the rough times. Whether it's God, Allah, Buddha, whoever...pray...believe that there is a higher power that is watching over you and protecting you, and always know that there is a master plan and everything that happens, happens for a reason. Don't worry so much about pleasing others. Be yourself. Find inner peace and happiness. At the end of the day, that's what matters. That you are at peace with yourself. Trust me on this one.
OK, well I'm gonna go now. I'm sure you all are bored to tears by now (if you even got to this point). Thanks for reading. Nite Nite!
~*~Alina~*~
I know this is random but tonight I did something really satisfying, at least for me. And I know most of you will think this is kids stuff, and it probably is, but I've always had this incredible fear of rides that go upside down(FYI...my 2 biggest fears, upside down rides and rape). Tonight, I went on the Doppel Looper...not once...TWICE. I overcame my fear and I'm quite proud of myself. For a moment there I thought I was going to die a horrible squishy death, but I'm ok. Thank you to the 3 psychos that made me go on it a 2nd time: Zo, Monica, and Brian.
I remember back in high school I had internal issues with a lot of people, I cared too much what people thought, I let people get to me. And I was quite the angry cookie. But I have changed a lot, and it's even surprised me. Now there are only 2 people on campus I strongly dislike and wish they would go away...my ex (for reasons you all know), and this chick there that really bugs me and every time I see her I feel like slapping her across the face. A couple of ppl know who I'm talking about. She's a small, but tubby, little bitch that has NO RESPECT whatsoever and is full of herself...but like big time. Ahh, that felt good to let that out.
I have grown up and not let petty situations get the best of me, and thanks to that, I now have an amazing friend. I'm really sorry I didn't get to know her more when she was still @ FIU, but she truly is an admirable person and I love her to death for being the good friend she is...so yeah, shout out to my O-town Notebook sappy movie buddy lolol. <3 ya and u best get here ASAP cuz I went to the Fair tonight and I gotta start running!!! P.S. Thank u for the much needed talk...you're great!
My friends are all amazing people. These are real friends. They have proven in a few months what my so-called "friends" I used to hang out with didn't prove in years of knowing them (minus u Sandra cuz ur great and I love u to death and I wish we'd hang out more).
I have learned that a chunk of the guys in this world are either ignorant or just plain assholes.(Zo relax this doesn't apply to you). I have been lied to, insulted, cheated on, left for a country 13 hours away, heart broken, etc. It makes one become skeptical and cynical. I'm praying to God I won't be hurt again but somehow I don't see it happening. I see a future of happiness and love and great things. He truly loves me and values me. I am content. At one point I had started to wonder if there was something wrong with ME, but then I realized...nope, not the case at all. I may not be perfect, and I know my faults...but I pride myself in being a damn good girlfriend...loyal, loving, and supportive til the end...and if you don't know how to value me, your loss, sorry...I did my part. And I'm more sure of this than ever, I AM MADLY IN LOVE WITH MY BOYFRIEND, HE IS EVERYTHING TO ME. I wish for all the girls I know and love to find men as wonderful and true as my Shrek, he's one in a million.
Monica: This whole paragraph is for you, Balsera. I thank Sandra for having introduced me to you. You're the type of friend everyone wishes for but very few are lucky enough to have. I really wish you would've been my sister because besides the fact we think alike ALL the time, you're an amazing friend and confedant (I think u spell it like that). Last year I went through the biggest hell I've faced in my life, and you were there every step of the way, being such a great friend and cheering me up when I needed it the most. You wasted $10 for the Doppel Looper to make sure that if something went wrong on the ride you would die with me. We took it as a joke but being the chicken sh*t that I am, it meant a lot to me that you'd do that for me. I can be an idiot around u and u won't laugh at me, you'll join the stupidity. lol. I really meant it when I said that if my sister wasn't my sister, you'd be first pick (u know what I'm talking about). I'm so grateful to you for your friendship and support. Know that I couldn't have made it through a bunch of crap in my life without you. I'll always be here for you. I love you very much!!! 477!!!
School sucks right now. Academics-wise. I am not really feeling my classes all that much. But I know that come age 25, I will have not only a B.A., but a Law degree. No one will bring me down because I want this, and I'm going to achieve it.
Guys, never lose faith. No matter how crappy your life can get. NEVER LOSE FAITH. It's the only thing that will carry you through the rough times. Whether it's God, Allah, Buddha, whoever...pray...believe that there is a higher power that is watching over you and protecting you, and always know that there is a master plan and everything that happens, happens for a reason. Don't worry so much about pleasing others. Be yourself. Find inner peace and happiness. At the end of the day, that's what matters. That you are at peace with yourself. Trust me on this one.
OK, well I'm gonna go now. I'm sure you all are bored to tears by now (if you even got to this point). Thanks for reading. Nite Nite!
~*~Alina~*~