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I'm sitting in the living room with my precious little boy. He has a blonde mohawk. It's time for a haircut though, where Steve and I shaved his head is growing back quickly. His little nose is so cute, and he has the most beautiful blue eyes. He's watching Thomas the steam engine or whatever its called. Occasionally saying something like "what's that" but it sounds like "ut dat." He has started saying sentences. He also has started calling me mom...and I correct him and say my name is "mama" haha.
Things are going pretty good. Okay at least. I don't feel sick today, first time in like four days. Steve and I had a conversation about the seriousness of our relationship, and I told him how I need stability, for Lu. And he said that, you know, he can't predict the future, but he could see himself being around for a while. :) So, yesterday I wanted to do something nice for him so I cleaned the house and made him dinner. I made pork chops, Italian green beans, stuffing, and cheddar garlic mashed potatoes. He said it was good. I bought some 16 oz bud light bottles too and put them in the fridge for him. And I took off his shoes. Then I made him a sandwich later, and gave him the last pickle (which he knew was the last pickle) and I think he appreciated it. And I kept getting drinks for him. He said thank you really nicely every time and it was really sweet to be appreciated. So, I think I'll be like that every day, as long as he doesn't start taking it for granted. Today I'm gonna give him a massage. Before we went to bed he said "You were really nice to me today. I mean, you're always nice, but you did a lot of stuff today." And I said "Well, you deserve it." And he does. I'm like that when i love a man, hopefully I don't get walked all over this time. I don't think that will happen though. Steve is so nice. I'm really really happy.
I cried this morning. I was playing with Lu, tickling him. I brushed his face with my hair and he closed his eyes and laughed. It reminded me of the first time he laughed. I had done the same thing. I remember he used to go "aaaaoouuu" when he was like 3-5 months old and i'd brush his face with my hair. And that first time he laughed was at the house on brook street on my grandma's bed. I was so happy to hear him laugh. It just made me sad that he's growing up so fast. He's wining now because I'm on the computer. He's funny. His little feet are so damn cute. He's watching peep and the big wide world now. He sure loves his TV. His eyelashes are so long. Oh and he has four freckles. One on his belly, one on his forehead, one on his left shoulder, and
Things are going pretty good. Okay at least. I don't feel sick today, first time in like four days. Steve and I had a conversation about the seriousness of our relationship, and I told him how I need stability, for Lu. And he said that, you know, he can't predict the future, but he could see himself being around for a while. :) So, yesterday I wanted to do something nice for him so I cleaned the house and made him dinner. I made pork chops, Italian green beans, stuffing, and cheddar garlic mashed potatoes. He said it was good. I bought some 16 oz bud light bottles too and put them in the fridge for him. And I took off his shoes. Then I made him a sandwich later, and gave him the last pickle (which he knew was the last pickle) and I think he appreciated it. And I kept getting drinks for him. He said thank you really nicely every time and it was really sweet to be appreciated. So, I think I'll be like that every day, as long as he doesn't start taking it for granted. Today I'm gonna give him a massage. Before we went to bed he said "You were really nice to me today. I mean, you're always nice, but you did a lot of stuff today." And I said "Well, you deserve it." And he does. I'm like that when i love a man, hopefully I don't get walked all over this time. I don't think that will happen though. Steve is so nice. I'm really really happy.
I cried this morning. I was playing with Lu, tickling him. I brushed his face with my hair and he closed his eyes and laughed. It reminded me of the first time he laughed. I had done the same thing. I remember he used to go "aaaaoouuu" when he was like 3-5 months old and i'd brush his face with my hair. And that first time he laughed was at the house on brook street on my grandma's bed. I was so happy to hear him laugh. It just made me sad that he's growing up so fast. He's wining now because I'm on the computer. He's funny. His little feet are so damn cute. He's watching peep and the big wide world now. He sure loves his TV. His eyelashes are so long. Oh and he has four freckles. One on his belly, one on his forehead, one on his left shoulder, and