I hate funerals.

Feb 10, 2006 10:39

As if death in some cases isn't bad enough, we have to have funerals. Why not a dinner or party in honor of their life? My great grandmother passed away last night. When I heard he health was failing this week, I felt kind of bad. I haven't been up to see her in the nursing home for a smidge over a year. But, the last time I did go, she could still communicate and she let us wheel her around a garden and we just sat around and talked, which was great. Since that point she's not communicated as much, and she would cry when you would leave. I guess she even started saying that she was ready to die. Near the end I've heard from other family members that she wasn't even recognizing some people. Now I'm kind of glad I didn't go. I think I am much happier remembering her as I last saw her.

Back to the funeral thing... In this particular case, I'm not so much sad that she's passed away. She has lived a long life and she was pretty much at the point where she was just suffering to stay here. So I am rather relieved that she is no longer suffering. But now I'm very nervous about the funeral. If I were going on my own I think I'd be ok, but I hate to see other family members crying and being upset, sometimes to histerical proportions. The sadness of others is what really upsets me. Its not that I don't think people should cry, becuase I do at funerals and weddings and such...which is mucho dorky I know. But in this case, I think we should all be happy that this woman that was in all of our lives isn't suffering alone in a nursing home anymore. Stress has been taken off the shoulders of many people in our family who spent time or money taking care of her.

When I die, just turn me to ashes and go have a party. Or if you want to be fancy have me turned into a life gem and wear me...whatever you want! (For more info on Life Gems go here: http://www.lifegem.com/ )
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