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Im sitting alone in my house, it seems bigger than before, prolly due to my lack of stuff. I dont have much beyond my gear, my TV, my bed and my clothes, never have really, not my thing. Im going out in a bit to buy some stuff as I need some basics and I cant have the place looking like some college flop house, can I? Ive gotta get some of the paintings up from the springs that I own, maybe next week and I very much need to go see my mum before I lose my chance.
Its been made clear to me that what was done to me here doesnt matter, that agreeing to something doesnt bind you to it and that friendships mean very little to people. I do wonder if I should start behaving in this fashion? I mean, when others do they seem to largley be getting exactly what they want. Im still shocked at the way this has played out, I never thought that everythig would be A-ok but I also never thought Id be pushed aside and discarded. Who knows maye Ill heal from it one day, maybe not. I suppose it doesnt really matter. Im thinking that Im going to lose a lot more here than Im supposed to, because I trusted some people and I believed the things they said to me, silly me.
Its been made clear to me that what was done to me here doesnt matter, that agreeing to something doesnt bind you to it and that friendships mean very little to people. I do wonder if I should start behaving in this fashion? I mean, when others do they seem to largley be getting exactly what they want. Im still shocked at the way this has played out, I never thought that everythig would be A-ok but I also never thought Id be pushed aside and discarded. Who knows maye Ill heal from it one day, maybe not. I suppose it doesnt really matter. Im thinking that Im going to lose a lot more here than Im supposed to, because I trusted some people and I believed the things they said to me, silly me.