Drift
Im lost.
I had an episode over the weekend that probably borders on a breakdown. I havent felt this way in many years, alone, confused, hopeless. The confidence I had is gone.
I woke up tis morning having a panic attack, from a night of nightmares that are all true, things that have, or will come to pass. Im still sitting on my bed in a heap, I got up to get the scotch and thats prolly the only time ill be getting out of bed today.
I know where this is headed, some of the few things that give me peace will be gone. Fitting.
The ghosts of so many things Ive left behind are with me now, thoughts and feeling Id thought were long dead. The waves keep coming, they may never stop.
maybe one day Ill look back on this and remember how I found comfort, maybe I was never meant to have it at all.
This just popped up on iTunes....
"I tell myself when I wake up
I do not feel the way I do
Its just an ordinary day"
I had an episode over the weekend that probably borders on a breakdown. I havent felt this way in many years, alone, confused, hopeless. The confidence I had is gone.
I woke up tis morning having a panic attack, from a night of nightmares that are all true, things that have, or will come to pass. Im still sitting on my bed in a heap, I got up to get the scotch and thats prolly the only time ill be getting out of bed today.
I know where this is headed, some of the few things that give me peace will be gone. Fitting.
The ghosts of so many things Ive left behind are with me now, thoughts and feeling Id thought were long dead. The waves keep coming, they may never stop.
maybe one day Ill look back on this and remember how I found comfort, maybe I was never meant to have it at all.
This just popped up on iTunes....
"I tell myself when I wake up
I do not feel the way I do
Its just an ordinary day"