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I just burped. Livejournal gives me that old feeling of being new to the internet and everything I'd see online would seem so cool or so gross or so whatever depending on what you saw. Despite bad times then I was full of hope and dreams that I'd make it out of all the BS I used to deal with family wise, shitty friends wise, and even my own inner demons.
I guess I got away from them all, but as an overthinker I basically turned into someone that nitpicks everything and the moment I feel I find that thing that is off, or seems off, then I disappear. I got health problems pretty bad these days. My triglyceride levels are literally "I'm a living, breathing potential stroke" at any given moment. I got fat. Fat fat. 300+lbs fat.
Last time I had a real relationship with someone was 2015 and ended so badly that I've only just kind of tested the waters again the past year or two and its just not the same at all cause I'm just not attractive at all lol.
IDK. I hope all the people I used to be friends with on here are doing great though. While I don't talk to any of you anymore, you were people I shared what I consider my favorite time of my life with. The early days of my internet adventures.