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so lately everyone says i'm MIA. its true i guess. I'm never on the internet and my phone is dead right now. i kinda like it. i've been very very busy with work/moving to my new apt/figuring out school stuff/getting drunk/getting high. I recently went to maine with stephanie to visit her boy toy. i was introduced to like 15 guys at a party we went to. I was the only girl there besides steph who was off with her boyfriend somewhere. They were all hitting on me in some way. i totally could have got some. the old alyssa would think, "man i havent gotten laid since may, i'm getting some dick." but i was so turned off even though i was trashed off my ass. have i grown morals? i think i'm starting to really grow up and its freaking me out.
my apathy for other people is at an all time high. i think i've finally acheived mental/emotional independence. right now, at this point in my life, i dont care if i fucking die alone.i dont need a best friend,some stupid boy, or some pill to keep me happy. only i can create my happiness, no else has control over that. i started smoking again. but i'd rather be addicted to butts than another human being.
i move in with brendan and melissa on linden street(the biggest party street in allston). i am so excited. the apt is gorgeous. the one i'm in now is okay, but its a basement apt so we have an un natural amount of bugs and it smells funny haha. but the new one is huge and amazing and i love it. i cant fucking wait to live with brendan. its probably going to be the best decision i've made in a while.
so far so good.
my apathy for other people is at an all time high. i think i've finally acheived mental/emotional independence. right now, at this point in my life, i dont care if i fucking die alone.i dont need a best friend,some stupid boy, or some pill to keep me happy. only i can create my happiness, no else has control over that. i started smoking again. but i'd rather be addicted to butts than another human being.
i move in with brendan and melissa on linden street(the biggest party street in allston). i am so excited. the apt is gorgeous. the one i'm in now is okay, but its a basement apt so we have an un natural amount of bugs and it smells funny haha. but the new one is huge and amazing and i love it. i cant fucking wait to live with brendan. its probably going to be the best decision i've made in a while.
so far so good.