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lately work is my life
i work from 8 in the morning to like 730 at night because i'm trying to pay for this new apt.
i have been hanging out with people from work so much. i've been smoking a ton lately too. i made a new friend named jessi at work. shes 26 and awesome. i hung out with her and steph and it was the best time i've had in a while. jessi is the first girl i've met here who truely open minded and has a lot more to talk about than what boy she wants to bang or how she needs to lose weight.i thinks its just because i get along better with older people. People at work always forget i'm 19 and ask me to go out to bars. i hate it, i just wanna be 21.
actually, i went to my first bar the other night with people from work. i went to charlies in harvard square, they dont check ids. i got obliterated and had the longest conversation with my boss. it was awful. this boy i had a crush on at work is leaving and it was his going away party. he was drunk and all over me, soo unattractive. i just dont care about men lately, even though i meet a ton of them, and have plenty of oppurtunities. my sex drive is crazy because its been a pretty long time, but i really just dont care to get to know anyone. i think its because i could be in love, that needs to end. but i dont see it as a big problem, i'm very nonchalant about it, because i know i cant control it. if it were up to me, the only feelings i would want have for this person are negative.or maybe i'm not in love, it could be that my brain has just given up on feeling anything for anyone.i'd rather be alone i think, but still get laid. i'm such a shithead.
soo i guess people in tewksbury are convinced me and stephanie are dating? THATS AWESEOME. i love that soo much.
life is calm. and i love it.
i work from 8 in the morning to like 730 at night because i'm trying to pay for this new apt.
i have been hanging out with people from work so much. i've been smoking a ton lately too. i made a new friend named jessi at work. shes 26 and awesome. i hung out with her and steph and it was the best time i've had in a while. jessi is the first girl i've met here who truely open minded and has a lot more to talk about than what boy she wants to bang or how she needs to lose weight.i thinks its just because i get along better with older people. People at work always forget i'm 19 and ask me to go out to bars. i hate it, i just wanna be 21.
actually, i went to my first bar the other night with people from work. i went to charlies in harvard square, they dont check ids. i got obliterated and had the longest conversation with my boss. it was awful. this boy i had a crush on at work is leaving and it was his going away party. he was drunk and all over me, soo unattractive. i just dont care about men lately, even though i meet a ton of them, and have plenty of oppurtunities. my sex drive is crazy because its been a pretty long time, but i really just dont care to get to know anyone. i think its because i could be in love, that needs to end. but i dont see it as a big problem, i'm very nonchalant about it, because i know i cant control it. if it were up to me, the only feelings i would want have for this person are negative.or maybe i'm not in love, it could be that my brain has just given up on feeling anything for anyone.i'd rather be alone i think, but still get laid. i'm such a shithead.
soo i guess people in tewksbury are convinced me and stephanie are dating? THATS AWESEOME. i love that soo much.
life is calm. and i love it.