IM GAY
so i just got home from the diner like an hour ago... hahah.. yes its late... i went out to eat with brian, sam, and mommydos... it was nice... love being with the blocks... so after dinner me and bri went to diner like always... and met katie... we chilled for a long time.. and bri hadda be home at 930... but me and katie stayed for a little while.... well a little while turned into like 2 and a half hours... we talked for so long... jsut about life... and how awesome we are.. haha... i think sittin and chillin with katie made us much better friends... i mean... we talk and what not... but we got to actually talk man on man... or woman or whatev... it was nice... we went through about 7 or 8 cups of coffee and went to the bathroom at least 4 times.. hahah.. all and all i decided that i need to get away from jersey... and start all over... i messed a lotta stuff up here.. haha.. as much as i love brian kyle katie and all thos kids... i just need to go home... and start something for my self... it'll be hard... but i think i can stick it out and do school and work at the same time... imma big kid... and well.. i think i, more than anyone else i know, can multi task and work for what i want...
ive been throwing around so many feelings lately that i dont know what to do with myself... i feel lost still but i think its helping me realize what i want most... and its something that no one can give me but myself.... something ih ave to work for and push at... i just wanna be happy... as hard as happiness is to get... its what i want most... of course everyone wants happiness... but i think ill be closer to happy if i just move away and move on to something for myself... yes im selfish and lame... but whatev cuz this is the rest of my life... and no matter where i get in life... whatever i did on the way got me there and thats all there is to it... no one else to fall back on... im owning up to full responsibility...
im an ass... and im going to bed... mabe its just the coffee typing...???...
questions, comments, concerns?... drop me a comment bitch...
ive been throwing around so many feelings lately that i dont know what to do with myself... i feel lost still but i think its helping me realize what i want most... and its something that no one can give me but myself.... something ih ave to work for and push at... i just wanna be happy... as hard as happiness is to get... its what i want most... of course everyone wants happiness... but i think ill be closer to happy if i just move away and move on to something for myself... yes im selfish and lame... but whatev cuz this is the rest of my life... and no matter where i get in life... whatever i did on the way got me there and thats all there is to it... no one else to fall back on... im owning up to full responsibility...
im an ass... and im going to bed... mabe its just the coffee typing...???...
questions, comments, concerns?... drop me a comment bitch...