OH YOUR HEART IT HELPS SO MUCH WHEN WE ARE BARELY SCRAPING BY
"i just came to say i love you
&see if you would be needing anything.
to say thank you and how grateful i am for everything you taught me.
it's those long talks i won't forget.
just to see you smile, it brings me right to them.
so i'll sit here now and hold your hand.
it's these few long hours that make me what i am."
IT WOULD BE A LOT MORE CONVENIENT IF I WERE PERFECT OR IF I COULD MAKE THINGS PERFECT.
BUT THEN PERHAPS I WOULD MISS OUT ON VALUABLE LESSONS BECAUSE WHAT WOULD THERE BE TO LEARN?
I HAVE RECENTLY DISCOVERED HOW MUCH WEIGHT BEING A PERFECTIONIST TIES ON. IT BECOMES ALMOST UNBEARABLE.
UNFORTUNATELY, THERE IS ABSOLUTELY NOTHING I CAN DO ABOUT IT. HOWEVER, IT BECOMES EXTREMELY FRUSTRATING ON MY PART &ON OTHERS AROUND ME. I CONSTANTLY FIND PEOPLE TELLING ME THAT THINGS WILL BE OK OR THAT THEY ARE NOT A BIG DEAL AND I FIND IT HARD TO UNDERSTAND HOW ONE CAN GIVE ME ADVICE ON HOW TO DEAL WITH SOMETHING WHICH THEY DO NOT HAVE TO OVERCOME.
I UNDERSTAND THEY ARE TRYING TO HELP ME, WHICH I REALLY APPRECIATE, BUT WHEN I AM HAVING A PERFECTIONIST MOMENT, SOMEONE TELLING ME THAT THE PROJECT I HAVE DONE OR AM DOING IS OK ONLY FRUSTRATES ME MORE WHICH ONLY MAKES THEM FRUSTRATED TOWARDS ME. NOT A GOOD MIX.
IT WOULD ALSO BE A LOT MORE CONVENIENT IF MY FRIENDS WERE PERFECT.
BUT MAYBE THANK GOODNESS THEY ARE NOT BECAUSE I WOULD BE A BAD FRIEND IF I WAS THE ONLY ONE NOT UP TO PAR, HAHA.
I FEEL MYSELF BECOMING DISTANT TO THOSE WHO HAVE BEEN CLOSEST TO ME FOR SOME TIME, WHICH IS A HARD THING TO DEAL WITH. IT IS CONFUSING.
I FEEL AS THOUGH I AM NOT ON THE SAME LEVEL WITH THE MAJORITY [THAT BEING GOOD OR BAD, WHO KNOWS] &THAT BECOMES THE DISTANCE.
BUT WITH THAT DISTANCE I HAVE BEEN ABLE TO SEE THINGS FROM A DIFFERENT PERSPECTIVE. I HAVE BEEN ABLE TO REALIZE THOSE WHO CARE THE MOST ABOUT ME &VICE VERSA. YOU CAN ONLY SUGARCOAT FRIENDSHIPS, RELATIONSHIPS, &SITUATIONS FOR SO LONG.
SO THIS IN RETURN IS A BLESSING. ODD HOW THAT WORKS OUT.
I JUST HAVE TO REMIND MYSELF OF THAT SOMETIMES.
I HAVE BEEN SO OVERWHELMED LATELY THAT I FEEL LIKE MY SEEMS ARE ABOUT TO BREAK. I AM SO OVERWHELMED THAT LITTLE THINGS GO RIGHT OVER MY HEAD. I ALSO HAVE SO MUCH TO DO ON A 24/7 BASIS THAT I SOMETIMES WASTE TIME TRYING TO FIGURE OUT WHERE TO START. OR I EVEN JUST DO NOT START BECAUSE I AM UNSURE WHERE TO.
BUT WITH THE BAD COMES THE GOOD-LIKE ALWAYS. &I AM ONLY OVERWHELEMED BECAUSE I HAVE A LOT TO DO OVER THE COURSE OF THE NEXT 30 DAYS. THIS INCLUDES DRESS UP DAYS AT WORK, COPELAND, HOMECOMING WEEK/DANCE, DEATH CAB, MY BIRTHDAY, FALL SHOPPING. SO IT IS ALL FOR A GOOD CAUSE. THIS HAS POTENTIAL TO BE THE BEST 30 OR SO DAYS OF MY LIFE.
GOD BLESS THE PEOPLE IN MY LIFE WHO LOVE ME NO MATTER WHAT.
&GOD BLESS THE PEOPLE WHO TAKE ME FOR WHO I AM &WITH ALL THAT I COME WITH.
THANK YOU FOR CARING,LISTENING,&HELPING. BUT MOSTLY THANK YOU FOR FORGIVING ME.
TO THE MOST WONDERFUL PEOPLE WHO KEEP ME GOING
[from the last couple months]
MY LIFE.
MY 2ND HOME [JOURNALISM LAB]
MY 2ND FAMILY.
MY COMIC RELIEF.
MY SANITY.
MY BOYS.
MY LOVE [CHRIS THILE FROM NICKEL CREEK]
MY OTHER BOYS.
&CUTE REDHEADED GIRL DANCING THROUGH THE ENTIRE SHOW.
&see if you would be needing anything.
to say thank you and how grateful i am for everything you taught me.
it's those long talks i won't forget.
just to see you smile, it brings me right to them.
so i'll sit here now and hold your hand.
it's these few long hours that make me what i am."
IT WOULD BE A LOT MORE CONVENIENT IF I WERE PERFECT OR IF I COULD MAKE THINGS PERFECT.
BUT THEN PERHAPS I WOULD MISS OUT ON VALUABLE LESSONS BECAUSE WHAT WOULD THERE BE TO LEARN?
I HAVE RECENTLY DISCOVERED HOW MUCH WEIGHT BEING A PERFECTIONIST TIES ON. IT BECOMES ALMOST UNBEARABLE.
UNFORTUNATELY, THERE IS ABSOLUTELY NOTHING I CAN DO ABOUT IT. HOWEVER, IT BECOMES EXTREMELY FRUSTRATING ON MY PART &ON OTHERS AROUND ME. I CONSTANTLY FIND PEOPLE TELLING ME THAT THINGS WILL BE OK OR THAT THEY ARE NOT A BIG DEAL AND I FIND IT HARD TO UNDERSTAND HOW ONE CAN GIVE ME ADVICE ON HOW TO DEAL WITH SOMETHING WHICH THEY DO NOT HAVE TO OVERCOME.
I UNDERSTAND THEY ARE TRYING TO HELP ME, WHICH I REALLY APPRECIATE, BUT WHEN I AM HAVING A PERFECTIONIST MOMENT, SOMEONE TELLING ME THAT THE PROJECT I HAVE DONE OR AM DOING IS OK ONLY FRUSTRATES ME MORE WHICH ONLY MAKES THEM FRUSTRATED TOWARDS ME. NOT A GOOD MIX.
IT WOULD ALSO BE A LOT MORE CONVENIENT IF MY FRIENDS WERE PERFECT.
BUT MAYBE THANK GOODNESS THEY ARE NOT BECAUSE I WOULD BE A BAD FRIEND IF I WAS THE ONLY ONE NOT UP TO PAR, HAHA.
I FEEL MYSELF BECOMING DISTANT TO THOSE WHO HAVE BEEN CLOSEST TO ME FOR SOME TIME, WHICH IS A HARD THING TO DEAL WITH. IT IS CONFUSING.
I FEEL AS THOUGH I AM NOT ON THE SAME LEVEL WITH THE MAJORITY [THAT BEING GOOD OR BAD, WHO KNOWS] &THAT BECOMES THE DISTANCE.
BUT WITH THAT DISTANCE I HAVE BEEN ABLE TO SEE THINGS FROM A DIFFERENT PERSPECTIVE. I HAVE BEEN ABLE TO REALIZE THOSE WHO CARE THE MOST ABOUT ME &VICE VERSA. YOU CAN ONLY SUGARCOAT FRIENDSHIPS, RELATIONSHIPS, &SITUATIONS FOR SO LONG.
SO THIS IN RETURN IS A BLESSING. ODD HOW THAT WORKS OUT.
I JUST HAVE TO REMIND MYSELF OF THAT SOMETIMES.
I HAVE BEEN SO OVERWHELMED LATELY THAT I FEEL LIKE MY SEEMS ARE ABOUT TO BREAK. I AM SO OVERWHELMED THAT LITTLE THINGS GO RIGHT OVER MY HEAD. I ALSO HAVE SO MUCH TO DO ON A 24/7 BASIS THAT I SOMETIMES WASTE TIME TRYING TO FIGURE OUT WHERE TO START. OR I EVEN JUST DO NOT START BECAUSE I AM UNSURE WHERE TO.
BUT WITH THE BAD COMES THE GOOD-LIKE ALWAYS. &I AM ONLY OVERWHELEMED BECAUSE I HAVE A LOT TO DO OVER THE COURSE OF THE NEXT 30 DAYS. THIS INCLUDES DRESS UP DAYS AT WORK, COPELAND, HOMECOMING WEEK/DANCE, DEATH CAB, MY BIRTHDAY, FALL SHOPPING. SO IT IS ALL FOR A GOOD CAUSE. THIS HAS POTENTIAL TO BE THE BEST 30 OR SO DAYS OF MY LIFE.
GOD BLESS THE PEOPLE IN MY LIFE WHO LOVE ME NO MATTER WHAT.
&GOD BLESS THE PEOPLE WHO TAKE ME FOR WHO I AM &WITH ALL THAT I COME WITH.
THANK YOU FOR CARING,LISTENING,&HELPING. BUT MOSTLY THANK YOU FOR FORGIVING ME.
TO THE MOST WONDERFUL PEOPLE WHO KEEP ME GOING
[from the last couple months]
MY LIFE.
MY 2ND HOME [JOURNALISM LAB]
MY 2ND FAMILY.
MY COMIC RELIEF.
MY SANITY.
MY BOYS.
MY LOVE [CHRIS THILE FROM NICKEL CREEK]
MY OTHER BOYS.
&CUTE REDHEADED GIRL DANCING THROUGH THE ENTIRE SHOW.