Anyone can play guitar??
I wish I had a bit more self-discipline (sp?). So many things I want to do, to create but it just seems I end up sitting on my arse waiting for that lightning of inspiration to strike me. Then I remember what my Finnish teacher used to say, how inspiration will never come and there's no point of waiting, you just have to kick yourself hard and get going. That thought makes me feel even worse.
I hate being mediocre. I hate being ok at everything. I haven't yet decided whether this is all in my head, if I really do have any hope in the areas I used to think I was talented in. I wish I had someone who I could show the stuff I do and get an honest, confidential opinion. A lot of it is really personal and I really don't feel like sharing it with someone who knows me too well. There's always a chance of misunderstanding.
During times like these I feel it's time to give up. maybe I should just do a boring business degree (no offense to anyone doing so) and work in a boring bank job for the rest of my life.
Maybe I'm just too impatient. Correction, I am too impatient definitely. I don't know if that'll ever change
I hate being mediocre. I hate being ok at everything. I haven't yet decided whether this is all in my head, if I really do have any hope in the areas I used to think I was talented in. I wish I had someone who I could show the stuff I do and get an honest, confidential opinion. A lot of it is really personal and I really don't feel like sharing it with someone who knows me too well. There's always a chance of misunderstanding.
During times like these I feel it's time to give up. maybe I should just do a boring business degree (no offense to anyone doing so) and work in a boring bank job for the rest of my life.
Maybe I'm just too impatient. Correction, I am too impatient definitely. I don't know if that'll ever change