gonna sip bacardi like it's my birthday
I'm having a bit of a moment, feeling anxious in a way I haven't for months. I don't know exactly why but I think it has to do with having a BBQ on Saturday and my mom and feeling bad for her spending money on me right now for my birthday when she doesn't have a job. I think that's the main root of it but part of me just wants to cancel the BBQ altogether, even though I won't.
I'm just having a stupid depressive moment, one I haven't had in forever. I'm still taking my pills but it's been so fucking hot this week and I haven't really gotten a proper night's sleep, I don't think, because I haven't been taking my sleeping pills. They make me sleep through ALL THE ALARMS (seriously, I have about seven) so I haven't been taking them in the week while mom hasn't been working because she's not up in the morning to make sure I DO get up. So instead about an hour ago I took two codeine. Smart? We'll see!
So yeah. Shitty way to be posting but I really had to get this out to force my brain to put it into words so it can see how ridiculous and small this is.
It doesn't help that itunes is on random and keeps spitting stupid songs at me that I don't want to listen to. Sometimes it's BANG ON and awesome and other times it's like, "YOU LISTEN TO THIS SHIT NOW!" and I'm like- fuck you, itunes!
On another note
I still can't tell if I liked it or not. I went into it not knowing if I was going to like it. Yeah.
It was one of those movies where the trailer looked so intense and awesome but when you got down to the actual plot it kinda screamed Mary Sue and you wondered if the trailer was going to be the most awesome part.
I didn't hate it but I doubt I'll be buying the dvd when it comes out. Blake Lively was horribly miscast. Well, not HORRIBLY, but the part definitely should have gone to someone else. I was thinking last night about who I'd have cast instead and all I could really come up with was Britt Marling. I think she could have done the role, but then I've only seen her in very few things.
Blake LOOKED the part totally but everything I read about her getting into character and ABOUT her character made me facepalm with embarrassment, like how she chose the tattoos because they represented her character but they were all shitty butterflies.
Stylistically I enjoyed it, although there were moments of random "artsy" stuff thrown in willy nilly, like a few seconds of b&w, or lens flares, or slow mo--just all over the place.
The guys were also okay, for the most part, but these weren't roles that were going to make or break them, honestly. I don't think Taylor Kitsch will SUFFER from this role but I don't think it's going to get him (back?) into anyone's good books. Aaron Johnson is a weird one for me because I can totally see how he's attractive sometimes but he just looks so greasy/smarmy with facial hair sometimes it freaks me out and his character in "Kick Ass" had a lisp and he's married to that WAY older woman with kids now and I don't have a PROBLEM with that but it weirds me out in ways I can't logically explain without seeming like I DO have a problem and I don't think I do but maybe I do?
See, he confounds me.
John Travolta's eyes are SO close set, it's all I could stare at/think about when he was briefly on the screen. And when he gets really intense they get all wide and round and just... EYES.
Salma was gorgeous, of course, but she also chewed the scenery something fierce. Her character was a bit up and down--one second she was a badass, then she was freaking about stuff, it was a bit distracting.
Overall, it wasn't horrifying but it was a bit second-hand embarrassing for me. The movie was a bit of a love letter to Blake Lively in the end. If you're going to see it wait for a cheap night or a matinee.
I've started watching Luther (only series one so far, I have series two ready for me), Bedlam (a bit random, liked the plot and overall theme, even if it was a bit repetitive and I've only seen the first series so far but I know the second is airing right now) and the first series of Sherlock. I am LOVING Netflix! I'm going to watch Survivors, maybe some MI5 and maybe Robin Hood eventually. I have also been sneaky and found a way to get onto the American site so YAY! More TV!
That's about where I am at the moment, you?
I'm just having a stupid depressive moment, one I haven't had in forever. I'm still taking my pills but it's been so fucking hot this week and I haven't really gotten a proper night's sleep, I don't think, because I haven't been taking my sleeping pills. They make me sleep through ALL THE ALARMS (seriously, I have about seven) so I haven't been taking them in the week while mom hasn't been working because she's not up in the morning to make sure I DO get up. So instead about an hour ago I took two codeine. Smart? We'll see!
So yeah. Shitty way to be posting but I really had to get this out to force my brain to put it into words so it can see how ridiculous and small this is.
It doesn't help that itunes is on random and keeps spitting stupid songs at me that I don't want to listen to. Sometimes it's BANG ON and awesome and other times it's like, "YOU LISTEN TO THIS SHIT NOW!" and I'm like- fuck you, itunes!
On another note
I still can't tell if I liked it or not. I went into it not knowing if I was going to like it. Yeah.
It was one of those movies where the trailer looked so intense and awesome but when you got down to the actual plot it kinda screamed Mary Sue and you wondered if the trailer was going to be the most awesome part.
I didn't hate it but I doubt I'll be buying the dvd when it comes out. Blake Lively was horribly miscast. Well, not HORRIBLY, but the part definitely should have gone to someone else. I was thinking last night about who I'd have cast instead and all I could really come up with was Britt Marling. I think she could have done the role, but then I've only seen her in very few things.
Blake LOOKED the part totally but everything I read about her getting into character and ABOUT her character made me facepalm with embarrassment, like how she chose the tattoos because they represented her character but they were all shitty butterflies.
Stylistically I enjoyed it, although there were moments of random "artsy" stuff thrown in willy nilly, like a few seconds of b&w, or lens flares, or slow mo--just all over the place.
The guys were also okay, for the most part, but these weren't roles that were going to make or break them, honestly. I don't think Taylor Kitsch will SUFFER from this role but I don't think it's going to get him (back?) into anyone's good books. Aaron Johnson is a weird one for me because I can totally see how he's attractive sometimes but he just looks so greasy/smarmy with facial hair sometimes it freaks me out and his character in "Kick Ass" had a lisp and he's married to that WAY older woman with kids now and I don't have a PROBLEM with that but it weirds me out in ways I can't logically explain without seeming like I DO have a problem and I don't think I do but maybe I do?
See, he confounds me.
John Travolta's eyes are SO close set, it's all I could stare at/think about when he was briefly on the screen. And when he gets really intense they get all wide and round and just... EYES.
Salma was gorgeous, of course, but she also chewed the scenery something fierce. Her character was a bit up and down--one second she was a badass, then she was freaking about stuff, it was a bit distracting.
Overall, it wasn't horrifying but it was a bit second-hand embarrassing for me. The movie was a bit of a love letter to Blake Lively in the end. If you're going to see it wait for a cheap night or a matinee.
I've started watching Luther (only series one so far, I have series two ready for me), Bedlam (a bit random, liked the plot and overall theme, even if it was a bit repetitive and I've only seen the first series so far but I know the second is airing right now) and the first series of Sherlock. I am LOVING Netflix! I'm going to watch Survivors, maybe some MI5 and maybe Robin Hood eventually. I have also been sneaky and found a way to get onto the American site so YAY! More TV!
That's about where I am at the moment, you?