Nothing Like the Sun
I'm hanging in there. Worked out my plan for second quarter last night, went outside to check the mail -- felt okay. My mood shifts through the day and I'm used to that -- I had to grit my teeth because I could literally feel that restless feeling wash over me. My neighbors are pissed off at each other because the guy behind me uses the fact he's a music producer to blast music at stupid times of the night. when I say blast, I mean BLAST. As in, I was a block down the street and I could literally hear the lyrics of the song he was playing. That agitates the fuck out of me when I'm finally getting to go to bed at 2am and he's blaaaaaaasting away. What cracks me up is that he's in my face bragging about how he can live anywhere he wants. What part of "I'm a motherfuckin' Careerist bitch and I love it" do you not understand? What's the matter, do they not stock the shelves with independent women where you come from? Fuuuuck. /stops self from ranting.
I don't give a damn about that, really -- it's just so painfully obvious that he's a joke, and I'm glad that my former boss separated from his ass professionally. I quietly supported that move *sneaky chessboard grin*
It's actually been a rather peaceful week so far -- a little hectic at work with these projects and my overall restlessness/depression gnawing at me. I am trying to get back in the smut mood, but I can't get more than about 400 words in before I feel guilty about taking a break and I barrel back to work, only to get frustrated that I'd be writing smut. LOL. I really hate this time of year because I don't have a moment's peace -- I'm pretty much on call nearly all the time. BUT! My best client (the one responsible for the 5 hours of sleep I'm running on currently) is taking a damn vacation this weekend -- which means that if I'm a good girl and I actually force myself to write even though I'm tired, I'll actually have a better chance of getting time to myself.
*thinks*
Honestly, for the entire week I have 24.2K words due -- considering my more stressful weeks cover -three times- that amount ... it's a matter of buckling down, focusing, and getting this shit done. If I want to get in a lil' extra credit, there is 14K that my other client would like me to get done, but he's well aware my brain is a little ...off so he's not stressing me hard.
I'm going back to using my timers, blocking (as in, write like the rent is due in an hour and it's gotta get done NAO) out in 40 minute blocks (then getting up for a 20 minute stretch/ipod-crazy-style dance), and marking down my scoreboard. I feed all my text files into the program JT wrote me (every gal needs to have a computer programmer for a buddy! hehe) and then it spits out how many words I've actually burned through. I LOVE it.
So let's see -- today is Tuesday proper -- if I clear 12-15K words a day, I will be finished by late Wednesday. That's nice :D I mean, if I was 100% (and I know I'm not) I could probably handle that shit today and be done with it. Hm, there's a thought :) I'm already awake...but oy. I'll tear through today and see how far I get. Grabbing 18,000 words shouldn't be hard. My speed is going up -- I'm getting to a point where I can almost sustain 4,500 words an hour -- but I still hang back at 3,500 with some instances of 4k/hour. *sigh* It takes time to get fast and I'm already faster than most of my fellow SEO copywriters.
My RenIchi storyverse is kicking my ass. I'm really trying to avoid leaking too much of my wacky chessboardery into it -- but there be Aizen in thar. and oh god, you know I'm weak for Aizen's just-as-planned trickery. Chapter 3 hinted at a few things but ... -grins- I do have a plan. But Renji and Ichigo are tough, loyal, and determined. I know they'll walk out of it in one piece, thriving-not-just-surviving style.
I'm about 600 / 3500 on RenIchi one-shot #1, but I know I won't be able to focus on it until I finish -everything-. I'm already looking forward to writing fic this weekend.
Oh! Be proud of my non-self promotional self -- I actually promoted a fic in a community ...tho, not realizing it would get picked up by bleach news. That was kinda cool (yeah, I know it's not special to get picked up by b_n since it's an auto scrape but...it's encouraging to get over my indifference of self promo...I want more story discussion and to connect with peopel that are as into writing as I am...had a conversation with a writer last night about the word pictures, analogies, and word rhythms in her story. Yeah, I'm a -deep- reader, which is why I'm nearly incapable of making short reviews/comments on fics.)
Trying to breathe and find my center of calm. Noticing that being logged into a certain IM network is distracting me greatly -- I waste way too many hours on IM -- far more than LJ -- here I post, check my f-list but my circle is small and ya'll are mostly gone during the day.
Just as planned?
Sorry :)
I don't give a damn about that, really -- it's just so painfully obvious that he's a joke, and I'm glad that my former boss separated from his ass professionally. I quietly supported that move *sneaky chessboard grin*
It's actually been a rather peaceful week so far -- a little hectic at work with these projects and my overall restlessness/depression gnawing at me. I am trying to get back in the smut mood, but I can't get more than about 400 words in before I feel guilty about taking a break and I barrel back to work, only to get frustrated that I'd be writing smut. LOL. I really hate this time of year because I don't have a moment's peace -- I'm pretty much on call nearly all the time. BUT! My best client (the one responsible for the 5 hours of sleep I'm running on currently) is taking a damn vacation this weekend -- which means that if I'm a good girl and I actually force myself to write even though I'm tired, I'll actually have a better chance of getting time to myself.
*thinks*
Honestly, for the entire week I have 24.2K words due -- considering my more stressful weeks cover -three times- that amount ... it's a matter of buckling down, focusing, and getting this shit done. If I want to get in a lil' extra credit, there is 14K that my other client would like me to get done, but he's well aware my brain is a little ...off so he's not stressing me hard.
I'm going back to using my timers, blocking (as in, write like the rent is due in an hour and it's gotta get done NAO) out in 40 minute blocks (then getting up for a 20 minute stretch/ipod-crazy-style dance), and marking down my scoreboard. I feed all my text files into the program JT wrote me (every gal needs to have a computer programmer for a buddy! hehe) and then it spits out how many words I've actually burned through. I LOVE it.
So let's see -- today is Tuesday proper -- if I clear 12-15K words a day, I will be finished by late Wednesday. That's nice :D I mean, if I was 100% (and I know I'm not) I could probably handle that shit today and be done with it. Hm, there's a thought :) I'm already awake...but oy. I'll tear through today and see how far I get. Grabbing 18,000 words shouldn't be hard. My speed is going up -- I'm getting to a point where I can almost sustain 4,500 words an hour -- but I still hang back at 3,500 with some instances of 4k/hour. *sigh* It takes time to get fast and I'm already faster than most of my fellow SEO copywriters.
My RenIchi storyverse is kicking my ass. I'm really trying to avoid leaking too much of my wacky chessboardery into it -- but there be Aizen in thar. and oh god, you know I'm weak for Aizen's just-as-planned trickery. Chapter 3 hinted at a few things but ... -grins- I do have a plan. But Renji and Ichigo are tough, loyal, and determined. I know they'll walk out of it in one piece, thriving-not-just-surviving style.
I'm about 600 / 3500 on RenIchi one-shot #1, but I know I won't be able to focus on it until I finish -everything-. I'm already looking forward to writing fic this weekend.
Oh! Be proud of my non-self promotional self -- I actually promoted a fic in a community ...tho, not realizing it would get picked up by bleach news. That was kinda cool (yeah, I know it's not special to get picked up by b_n since it's an auto scrape but...it's encouraging to get over my indifference of self promo...I want more story discussion and to connect with peopel that are as into writing as I am...had a conversation with a writer last night about the word pictures, analogies, and word rhythms in her story. Yeah, I'm a -deep- reader, which is why I'm nearly incapable of making short reviews/comments on fics.)
Trying to breathe and find my center of calm. Noticing that being logged into a certain IM network is distracting me greatly -- I waste way too many hours on IM -- far more than LJ -- here I post, check my f-list but my circle is small and ya'll are mostly gone during the day.
Just as planned?
Sorry :)