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my god im crying...
we got the phone call from my grandma today...
10 days..
10 days to be in the hospital...some kemo but the cancer has spread too much now and because of his age it will make him weaker...
his kidneys are pretty much gone as well as his liver...
everything is failing on him...and my mom doesnt think he'll last the 10 days over there...
i just want to see him again..i know he's scared too...i had gotten my hopes up when the results had gotten back negative...but...then he stopped eating and he just kept getting sicker...i cant imagine what my grandma is going through...i know shes trying to stay strong...she told me that she doesnt want to worry him or to be alone..my moms a mess...and i keep telling myself to stay strong...but how can i when it just hurts soo much...i wish...i dont even know what i wish...no...i wish that by some miracle he could be healed. my aunt overheard the doctors saying that it had spread...and fast and is still spreading faster. that all they could do is make him as comfortable as possible...i just wish i couldve done something..dont know what but i wish i could help in some way..i dont want him to suffer cause i saw it in his eyes but...
mannys been a huge help...god i love him...when he was talking to my grandparents he said he wanted to cry cause he could see both their pain. i love you grandpa..dad...