The Biggest, Baddest World You've Ever Seen Is Smaller Than A Tear
You know what? I enjoy always being one or two years behind on everything. Usually things come to me at very oppurtune times. It's fantastic! Lately I've been pondering the possibility of self discovery. I've been back and forth thinking about if its something that I should investigate or not. Well, I was very unsure. Last night though, I finished Death Of A Salseman and I think it gave me the incentive to further investigate my core self, if there is one. It's the only book that I openly wept at the end of. Maybe that's because I put on 'Hotcha Girls' at the end of it though. Either way it made me believe that getting some basics down about myself is a very good thing. I think it's better I check it out now than let some basic questions be unanswered. I did realize that the concept of actually 'finding myself' is impossible, but again I think it's possible to see the core. The skeleton. Literally... and metaphorically. Literally would be a lot cooler though. Anyways, I think it's good to understand that core so I don't ignore it when my life is much busier. Really, I have a lot of time on my hands this year and I think this is a productive thing to do with it.
I also got Steve Burns' album today, Song For Dustmites. I've wanted to hear it for about two years now. Maybe even more, but again I'm glad I got it now. It's serving as a much needed inspiration in a time where I'm feeling a bit confused. It's a nice feeling of reassurance. Music can be a wonderful thing. I bought a Grizzly Bear and Mercury Rev album the other day and they are having the same effect on me. If you ever feel like illegally downloading, find "Lullabye" by Grizzly Bear and "Vermillion" by Mercury Rev. They are current obsessions of mine, especially Lullabye. I fall asleep to it just about every night now. They're relevant. Maybe. I am a lot happier than I thought I was going to be lately, and I'm very glad. This year has some unbreakable bond of greatness for everyone. Even when things aren't looking 'up' for me, I'm enjoying my ass off. There are dilemas and conflicts and all, but I'm not letting them bring me down. I'll prevail in some way, shape, or form. Just wait and see! Maybe it won't be in the way I hope, but it will be something none the less!
Oh, and Happy Feet is fucking awesome. God, that movie was fucked up. Tons of sexual innuendo and disturbing scenes. After Bryan Grove saw March Of The Penguins he was quoted as saying "Man, penguins are fucked up". I had the same exact reaction to this movie. SPEAKING OF THE MAN; Congratulations to Grove! He's finally free, and I have never been more proud of him. He got his justice. Maybe the world is taking the best possible turn right now, one by one. Maybe my turn went by though? Hopefully not. I'm hanging onto it next time.
I also got Steve Burns' album today, Song For Dustmites. I've wanted to hear it for about two years now. Maybe even more, but again I'm glad I got it now. It's serving as a much needed inspiration in a time where I'm feeling a bit confused. It's a nice feeling of reassurance. Music can be a wonderful thing. I bought a Grizzly Bear and Mercury Rev album the other day and they are having the same effect on me. If you ever feel like illegally downloading, find "Lullabye" by Grizzly Bear and "Vermillion" by Mercury Rev. They are current obsessions of mine, especially Lullabye. I fall asleep to it just about every night now. They're relevant. Maybe. I am a lot happier than I thought I was going to be lately, and I'm very glad. This year has some unbreakable bond of greatness for everyone. Even when things aren't looking 'up' for me, I'm enjoying my ass off. There are dilemas and conflicts and all, but I'm not letting them bring me down. I'll prevail in some way, shape, or form. Just wait and see! Maybe it won't be in the way I hope, but it will be something none the less!
Oh, and Happy Feet is fucking awesome. God, that movie was fucked up. Tons of sexual innuendo and disturbing scenes. After Bryan Grove saw March Of The Penguins he was quoted as saying "Man, penguins are fucked up". I had the same exact reaction to this movie. SPEAKING OF THE MAN; Congratulations to Grove! He's finally free, and I have never been more proud of him. He got his justice. Maybe the world is taking the best possible turn right now, one by one. Maybe my turn went by though? Hopefully not. I'm hanging onto it next time.