And Farewell Golden Ring! Oh You Hollow Little Thing!
What a purely insane November. Hey. Really, that was one crazy month. I went through a roller coaster ride of confusion. But not an awesome twisty, loopy roller coaster. One of those shitty ones that goes back and forth, up and down. Come on! No twists!? I want my fucking money back. The waiting line was more fun than this anticlimactic shit. How disappointing. METAPHOR! METAAAAAPHOOOOOR! And a bad one at that. What the hell am I saying. I'm spouting nonsense at 11 PM. Only 11! It's so early! I should be at the top of my thoughts right now, but noooooo. Whoop. I'll translate. Me and Jill broke up. No big surprise really. We had a big, absurd fight on Thanksgiving and it ruined my holiday, so I deemed our relationship too intense for me. Well, not just because of that. Our relationship became a really big mood swing. Not in a normal way; In a medically concerning way. I can't explain very well, especially with my mind this explody. In the end we weren't compatible as a couple; We're much better off as friends, and fortunately we're cool now. We had a few very awkward run-ins (Some caused by her, some by me. Mutual discomfort) but we matured. Thank God for that too, I was begining to fear I would transform into a seventh grader. I temporarily did, but I corrected that. Lost my mind; Mind has returned; Mind has wandered off. I don't know. I feel like I'm back to my old self now. I feel like I put on a whole big act in order to appease her. I liked having a clean slate, but I certainly misused it. Oh well.
All of that has brought me to realize that I must quest out to find myself! Aha! Yes it sounds horrendously stupid, but I am partially serious. I feel disatisfied with something in my life, but I can't quite realize what it is. Could it be my tragic flaw?? Ah, damn you Malchodi. Now I'm going to misuse that phrase for eternity. Digressing; I've decided that I need to hunt down this trait before I head off to college. It's a bother and I want to isolate it. I want to understand myself. Man, this is coming off so cliche. I feel like some bad coming of age film. But it's true; I do want to pice myself together. I keep yearning for some huge epiphany or something. I don't think it's going to happen, but I sure hope it does. Then again, maybe it won't possibly happen if I wish for it to. I don't think I'll be satisfied either way though. I'll always be asking more questions and searching for even more answers. Maybe that'd my problem? Naw. I'll think about it regardless though.
Well, things are working out for eveyone lately, so maybe I'm next. Maybe my unrealistic hopes will soon become reality? Again, very unlikely, but there is no harm in waiting. Unless I go insane. But I'll try not to. I'll keep those thoughts to myself... And the few people that I've probably told already. Maybe? I don't remember. Someone knows, probably. NEVERMIND. Erase your mind. Get ready for the FUTURE. Bjork is amazing.
All of that has brought me to realize that I must quest out to find myself! Aha! Yes it sounds horrendously stupid, but I am partially serious. I feel disatisfied with something in my life, but I can't quite realize what it is. Could it be my tragic flaw?? Ah, damn you Malchodi. Now I'm going to misuse that phrase for eternity. Digressing; I've decided that I need to hunt down this trait before I head off to college. It's a bother and I want to isolate it. I want to understand myself. Man, this is coming off so cliche. I feel like some bad coming of age film. But it's true; I do want to pice myself together. I keep yearning for some huge epiphany or something. I don't think it's going to happen, but I sure hope it does. Then again, maybe it won't possibly happen if I wish for it to. I don't think I'll be satisfied either way though. I'll always be asking more questions and searching for even more answers. Maybe that'd my problem? Naw. I'll think about it regardless though.
Well, things are working out for eveyone lately, so maybe I'm next. Maybe my unrealistic hopes will soon become reality? Again, very unlikely, but there is no harm in waiting. Unless I go insane. But I'll try not to. I'll keep those thoughts to myself... And the few people that I've probably told already. Maybe? I don't remember. Someone knows, probably. NEVERMIND. Erase your mind. Get ready for the FUTURE. Bjork is amazing.