fuck life
Matt just brought me a spicy scallop hand roll on soy paper. I'm still orgasming from it.
I'm going back to school really soon to finish my last year of college. Well, I'll be applying to grad school after that so it won't really be over but you know what I mean.
It's always stressful to think about going back to school. And worst of all Matt is going to have a job (which I hope happens), but then I don't know how often I will see him. Maybe alot, but maybe not. Oddly, this is the least stressful thing happening in my life. My crazy uncle doesn't agree or appreciate what I am doing. He thinks that for me to pursue the arts or anything that is academics is a waste of time for graduate school. He has not faith that I will get financial aid when I apply and he acts like Matt and I are going to be living in a cardboard box if we don't shape up soon. He wanted Matt to go for law school. Matt doesn’t want to though, he is going for an MFA, possible a doctorate in creative writing. I want Matt to do what he wants to do. I know he will succeed in anything he does and I think I will too. Other's do not seems to think this. I kind of just don't care what he thinks anymore, in the most respectful way.
I have started looking into grad schools for either MFA in printmaking or South Asian studies (some with anthropology). I'm really confused on what I want to pursue. Honestly, I think I am just as passionate about both topics. I may apply to both programs at the same time. If I go for Asian studies, I will have to take the dreaded GRE. For a lot of people, this is no big deal, but for me it is HUGE. I am a terrible test taker! My brain just doesn't function that way. Any good courses for the GRE start at fucking $1200. Geez! I may do self studying and I might even start soon. I'm terrible at math, so I will have to ketch up on that too. Surprising, there are a lot of websites that cater to people like me, like this one: http://www.wtamu.edu/academic/anns/mps/math/mathlab/gre/math_help.htm . Well, this is going to take an amazing amount of ambition from me to be able to get a descent score on this test. I'm not one of those people that say they sucks at things, but is actually good at it. I have come across so many people like that. When I say I suck at math, I really do. When I say I suck at taking tests, I really do. I think with the tests, I get too much anxiety about taking them. With Math, I can do it, it is possible, but it takes an amazing amount of effort and practice. I haven’t done any really math since highschool and I only reached algebra 2 intermediate (algebra 2 for the special people, basically).
I'm good at a lot of other thing, don't get me wrong. laugh laugh laugh LIKE, I hav already written close to 50 pages of my senior project! Most of it is first draft, but still!
I'm going back to school really soon to finish my last year of college. Well, I'll be applying to grad school after that so it won't really be over but you know what I mean.
It's always stressful to think about going back to school. And worst of all Matt is going to have a job (which I hope happens), but then I don't know how often I will see him. Maybe alot, but maybe not. Oddly, this is the least stressful thing happening in my life. My crazy uncle doesn't agree or appreciate what I am doing. He thinks that for me to pursue the arts or anything that is academics is a waste of time for graduate school. He has not faith that I will get financial aid when I apply and he acts like Matt and I are going to be living in a cardboard box if we don't shape up soon. He wanted Matt to go for law school. Matt doesn’t want to though, he is going for an MFA, possible a doctorate in creative writing. I want Matt to do what he wants to do. I know he will succeed in anything he does and I think I will too. Other's do not seems to think this. I kind of just don't care what he thinks anymore, in the most respectful way.
I have started looking into grad schools for either MFA in printmaking or South Asian studies (some with anthropology). I'm really confused on what I want to pursue. Honestly, I think I am just as passionate about both topics. I may apply to both programs at the same time. If I go for Asian studies, I will have to take the dreaded GRE. For a lot of people, this is no big deal, but for me it is HUGE. I am a terrible test taker! My brain just doesn't function that way. Any good courses for the GRE start at fucking $1200. Geez! I may do self studying and I might even start soon. I'm terrible at math, so I will have to ketch up on that too. Surprising, there are a lot of websites that cater to people like me, like this one: http://www.wtamu.edu/academic/anns/mps/math/mathlab/gre/math_help.htm . Well, this is going to take an amazing amount of ambition from me to be able to get a descent score on this test. I'm not one of those people that say they sucks at things, but is actually good at it. I have come across so many people like that. When I say I suck at math, I really do. When I say I suck at taking tests, I really do. I think with the tests, I get too much anxiety about taking them. With Math, I can do it, it is possible, but it takes an amazing amount of effort and practice. I haven’t done any really math since highschool and I only reached algebra 2 intermediate (algebra 2 for the special people, basically).
I'm good at a lot of other thing, don't get me wrong. laugh laugh laugh LIKE, I hav already written close to 50 pages of my senior project! Most of it is first draft, but still!