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[marcus_woods]

Ok, nightmares suck, they suck big time. I have been having them a few days now and I'm not sure exactly what I'm dreaming about but I woke up screaming once and in the closet another time

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[amber_oneil]

*tilts her head to one side thoughtfully, glancing around to make sure nobody else is in hearing distance*

Well, I totally applied to Harvard and Princeton and got in, but seriously - they have like, snow there. But you know, don't tell anybody because it's embarrassing. But I was thinking of Stanford. Dad wants me to go to UCLA though, since he graduated from there. Also probably cause it's cheaper, although I totally told him that if Jake doesn't go to college, he can just use Jake's tutition for me, too.

[marcus_woods]

And I'm sure that Jake was cool with that in a way that's not.

You don't like snow? It's got all those cool clothing opportunities you don't get to practice here.

[amber_oneil]

*shrugs, pulling her hand away*

It's Jake. He wouldn't care.

And snow is, you know, cold. Yuck.

[marcus_woods]

*looks hurt for a second when she pulls her hand back*

Ok, yeah it's cold.

I guess I should ask the hard question. What's happening with us when schools out?

[amber_oneil]

*frowns*

What do you mean?

[marcus_woods]

Well you're talking about leaving town, I'm planning on staying.

*looks at his hands really not wanting to be having this conversation*

Are we going to still see each other?

[amber_oneil]

Well, you know, I wasn't planning on dropping off the planet. You live here, Summer lives here, my mom lives here - I plan to come home.

*frowns at Marcus*

Why, did you want to break up?

[marcus_woods]

I don't want to break up. I wanted you to stay here with me remember? I just suck at reading what you want.

I'm sorry this is a really lousy way to spend our time out together.

[amber_oneil]

Ok, you do realize you're making like, no sense, right? If you don't want to break up, don't start asking where you think this is going, cause that's, you know, normally the lead-in to a break-up.

And I don't get why you keep apologizing tonight for like, everything. You're not getting sick, are you? Or is this some sorta spell? Cause I will totally kick some demon ass if I need to, I still have a stake.

[marcus_woods]

I'm trying to make sense! See I said I wasn't good at this.

*smiles*

No I'm not sick. Look I'm not trying to give a break up speech, not knowing how those go being as I've never gotten one or given one before. I just know you want to go away to school and I'm staying and then you don't want to go away over the summer and I really don't know how to take that. Ok yeah Ireland not your top choice but it could have been more.

And I keep apologizing because I'm feeling like a total idiot and really am just trying to stop myself from leaving so I can die of embarassment. Except I'm sure that's pretty much a wrong move.

I want to be there for you and do more with you and I just can't tell if you want me to ok?

[amber_oneil]

*rolls her eyes slightly*

Jeez, Marcus, it's me. I mean, if you want something, just say it straight out. Like, how do you want to take my not wanting to go to Ireland. It's not like it's some sorta thing...I just totally don't get roughing it for fun, cause ewww.

And you're totally here for me, so I don't understand what's going on in your head. I mean, you're my boyfriend and I love you, but you keep wanting to see all these weird double meanings in things and I totally don't do double meanings.

[marcus_woods]

I thought I was straight out. I asked if you wanted to go to Ireland and if you wanted to stay with me. I'm not going for double meanings.

I love you. You're the first person I've ever dated. I still can't believe you love me, it totally surprises me every day that anyone would, especially someone as special as you.

I thought maybe because you didn't want to go and you're leaving you wanted to leave me behind too. I've been kind of preparing myself for it mentally so I don't act stupid if you do.

[amber_oneil]

Yeah but you kept wanting to read things into it, and you're still doing it.

Marcus, if I want to break up with you, I'm just gonna say "Marcus, we're breaking up". So don't keep, like, pulling weird stuff out of thin air, ok?And if you keep preparing yourself to break up, then you're gonna end up breaking up with me in order to make it easier and...

*shakes her head*

You see where I'm going with this?

[marcus_woods]

I just am not sure what I am asking you to read into it.

Yes, I see what you're saying. Forget it I shouldn't have brought it up.

I had some bad dreams, maybe it's making me jumpy or something.

[amber_oneil]

*looks worried*

Dreams? Are you sleeping badly? That's totally not cool, have you tried, like, herbal tea and stuff? Mom always makes that for me when I can't sleep.

*leaves over the table, kissing Marcus and taking his mocha away from him*

And I'd better drink this for you, just in case.

*winks at him*

[marcus_woods]

Yeah getting to sleep isn't the problem, it's the dreaming and waking up part.

Sure take my addiction away after you encourage it.

Maybe I'll sleep ok tonight without the caffeine and stuff. Or I'll just paint a while. I'll be ok.