"Hello there, Angel from my nightmare..."
I so shouldn't be writing this. Or at least I should mark it as private and keep it away from everyone - but where would be the sense in that?
Just another night in which I'm awake, thinking of how things might turn out the next time. You know - all things love and all that shit.
I am so very happy right now. The way things are without "this special person" in my life. Though I know that a part deep down inside of me still hungers for someone close to me.
But after everything that has happened I am so afraid I might screw up things the next time. I might just not be able to stand it.
Which means I already think it can only go wrong and go wrong only. And so it will end as a self-fulfilling prophecy. No need to tell me this.
I don't even wish for an opinion on this. For pity or advices. I don't even know what I'm expecting by posting this.
I tend to be open minded. I love to hang out with my friends or even with new people. But sometimes... Just sometimes people scare me away.
Guess it's all because the first time I've ever fell in love with somebody it turned out the most horrible way it possibly could.
My subconciousness is playing tricks on me all the time. And I want to break free from it.
"There's nothing to believe in here
So just believe in me.
Your sense of apprehension suits you,
You wear your troubles well.
I've nothing left to hide from you,
I've got no God to sell.
[...]
The ghosts of lost loves follow you,
You feel but you can't trust.
Time disappears inside you,
'til there's nothing left but us.
[...]
No matter what they say we'll work out fine,
'cause you and I know this is heaven."
Just another night in which I'm awake, thinking of how things might turn out the next time. You know - all things love and all that shit.
I am so very happy right now. The way things are without "this special person" in my life. Though I know that a part deep down inside of me still hungers for someone close to me.
But after everything that has happened I am so afraid I might screw up things the next time. I might just not be able to stand it.
Which means I already think it can only go wrong and go wrong only. And so it will end as a self-fulfilling prophecy. No need to tell me this.
I don't even wish for an opinion on this. For pity or advices. I don't even know what I'm expecting by posting this.
I tend to be open minded. I love to hang out with my friends or even with new people. But sometimes... Just sometimes people scare me away.
Guess it's all because the first time I've ever fell in love with somebody it turned out the most horrible way it possibly could.
My subconciousness is playing tricks on me all the time. And I want to break free from it.
"There's nothing to believe in here
So just believe in me.
Your sense of apprehension suits you,
You wear your troubles well.
I've nothing left to hide from you,
I've got no God to sell.
[...]
The ghosts of lost loves follow you,
You feel but you can't trust.
Time disappears inside you,
'til there's nothing left but us.
[...]
No matter what they say we'll work out fine,
'cause you and I know this is heaven."