Peace........
Finally.....I feel 'at peace'......instead of being full of sorrow...or anger....or confusion......I'm at peace....
I do not regret or resent my past or those in it...everything was a learning experience.....I made mistakes....I made good choices...it's called life.....no one is perfect..........
However....I did learn A LOT......it's all about learning from those moments in the past and accepting what role I played in the situation.......you can't GROW if you are stuck in the land of bitter hatred......you can't get past things with anger in your heart....or regret....or resentments.......or evil thoughts..........I haven't moved on completely until recently because I've been stuck in Angersville......
I regret nothing......I learn from my mistakes....I grow....I do things different.....I break the cycle......I step outside of my 'comfort zone'......and I move on.......
The 'me' I was becoming years ago was a person full of silent jealous rage......of mistrust....of self-doubt......I also thought less of myself due to whatever mistakes I may have made in my youth.........I'm a 'mere mortal'......I make mistakes.....I am NOT perfect...NO human is.......so now....I'm more open minded....not the jealous person I once was...more 'relaxed'......more patient.......it's like something JUST CLICKED.....I predict big exciting changes to come....don't ask me why...it's just a feeling....that or I'm still out of it from my STUPID ear infection drama (lol just kidding.)
For the first time in a LONG time I feel OK......for the first time in a long time I am "just fine" on my 'own two feet'.....for the first time in a long time I don't have this tension and ANGER inside me...you can't move on until you love yourself.....you can't grow until you 'let go' of things that bother or harm you....anyway...I guess I'm finally 'there'......
Edit/Added....the post above makes think about these two songs.....not sure why
I do not regret or resent my past or those in it...everything was a learning experience.....I made mistakes....I made good choices...it's called life.....no one is perfect..........
However....I did learn A LOT......it's all about learning from those moments in the past and accepting what role I played in the situation.......you can't GROW if you are stuck in the land of bitter hatred......you can't get past things with anger in your heart....or regret....or resentments.......or evil thoughts..........I haven't moved on completely until recently because I've been stuck in Angersville......
I regret nothing......I learn from my mistakes....I grow....I do things different.....I break the cycle......I step outside of my 'comfort zone'......and I move on.......
The 'me' I was becoming years ago was a person full of silent jealous rage......of mistrust....of self-doubt......I also thought less of myself due to whatever mistakes I may have made in my youth.........I'm a 'mere mortal'......I make mistakes.....I am NOT perfect...NO human is.......so now....I'm more open minded....not the jealous person I once was...more 'relaxed'......more patient.......it's like something JUST CLICKED.....I predict big exciting changes to come....don't ask me why...it's just a feeling....that or I'm still out of it from my STUPID ear infection drama (lol just kidding.)
For the first time in a LONG time I feel OK......for the first time in a long time I am "just fine" on my 'own two feet'.....for the first time in a long time I don't have this tension and ANGER inside me...you can't move on until you love yourself.....you can't grow until you 'let go' of things that bother or harm you....anyway...I guess I'm finally 'there'......
Edit/Added....the post above makes think about these two songs.....not sure why
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